So how many times have I said I would not put up Christmas decorations in the past? Well it never works out that way. I now have a Christmas tree and outside snowflake icicle lights. Where did they come from? Well I bought them all today
It's just hard for me to not think that this time of the year means something. Hey, I might be the only who sees them, but they are there. I'm a loner anyway so I don't really need anyone to say that anything looks good
Back in the days when I was with someone I sure didn't enjoy things like that anyway. I enjoy them much more now in reality cause in many ways I am happier. Sure it would be nice to have someone, but it sure would not be nice to have someone like I had. I will take alone over that any day. One thing I always have to remember is that I will never let anyone take over my life again with the possessiveness and the demanding nature that I went through. I guess it is ok for someone to be jealous to a point, but nobody should ever think they own you and own everything you do.