Brokeback Mountain: Our Community's Common Bond > Heath Ledger Remembrance Forum
Heath Ledger - the grieving thread
smellykellyjay:
--- Quote from: LauraGigs on January 23, 2008, 02:51:06 am ---
Anything interesting up there in heaven?
--- End quote ---
Damn, Laura. You made me cry again, but you made me smile too. It's beautiful.
HerrKaiser:
I heard the news from six, back to back, voice messages at my office late in the day. I am in LA. How hurtfully fitting, I guess. I had to drive to a meeting in Newport Beach; did Heath travel this road? I was in a daze, driving in a clearly unsafe state of mind; I looked up at one point and saw a sign that said “Del Mar Avenue, next exit.”
For me, Ennis Del Mar WAS Heath Ledger. After decades of unknowing, waiting, yearning, hoping…he appeared like a sunrise in my life. ‘It was just a movie and a character’ people would say; but, for me, much, much more…as you all know perfectly well in your own lives.
Psychotic, perhaps. Immature, likely. But, I fell in love with this man, this character, this person who so led us out of a bog that was threatening, trapping, unfulfilling. He created a joy, a happiness, a welcoming that few, if any, had ever done. The sense of loss is complete; nothing can replace the man, the object of my reverence, or heal the wound now inflicted so unexpectedly.
I know thousands feel as I do. Few had the chance to reach out to him and offer our love and compassion for all he meant to us. If only….if only someone could have been there to help him sleep, to ease his pain, to do anything in small reciprocation of all the good he did for so many. Guilt shrouds my being in large part.
My spirituality tends to suggest that when a person’s “job” is done on earth, he is called to his eternal home. For me, dear Heath did more for humankind in 2 plus hours of film than many of us who strive and fail over the decades. He accomplished so much; but, why take the good so soon?
When the forums began taking on new directions 12-15 months ago and discussions began to be heated debate on many social/political issues, the unpleasantness on occasion by myself and others seems so regrettable and a wrongly placed effort. He gave us joy.
Two years ago, I felt happier than I have felt in 25 years. Today, the depth of sadness and pitiful wishing that time could be reversed just one day is overwhelming.
He will forever be exactly what he was that created our legitimate obsession and passion. Now, he will never grow old; a love that will never grow old. Our Heath. The man who renewed my hope and my emotion. We’ve all talked for two years about his promise to Jake to never forget him; today that promise comes from my heart to him.
SFEnnisSF:
--- Quote from: David on January 23, 2008, 03:58:33 am ---We each grieve in our own way. There is no wrong or right when it comes to grief.
I don't think I will watch Brokeback Mountain anytime soon. I don't think I can bear it.
Having said that, I'm very thankful it helped you Eric. I'm sure for some Brokies here seeing Ennis again will be therapeutic. I thought about watching it, but I just can't right now. Each one of us will work through this using different methods. And that is good, isn't it?
Maybe someday I will watch it again. Hopefully soon. :)
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Yes, we all have our own ways of dealing with this. For me, it was to watch the movie. That may not be for everyone now, and that is ok. :)
wulfar360:
well as i sit here in tears becaue i dont think it became real to me, i didnt believe it till ijust watched the video of them takin his body out of his building, i just wanted to say thanks heath for making ennis del mar come real for eveeryone you touched our hearts and souls may you find rest and peace
ya know i think its funny bout how many phonecalls i got today from people " did you hear"
and also how many times ive heard the word brokeback mountain today
<gives the man a moment of silence and lowers his head<
Penthesilea:
I still can't wrap my mind around it. I still have a hard time to believe it. I can't say good-bye- not now, not yet.
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