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The stages of grief

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Penthesilea:
Oh damn, here I go again...
I have a bad day today. I was looking for a specific BBM DVD pic for the TOTW yesterday evening, which I didn't find in the end, and so, so many Heath pics came up. Yes I know, not exactly surprising, and I'm the one who posts a Heath pic every day, so I'm looking quite often for Heath pics. But still, yesterday evening it hit me all over again :(.
Yes, it comes in waves. :'(

optom3:

--- Quote from: Penthesilea on May 13, 2008, 05:07:49 am ---Oh damn, here I go again...
I have a bad day today. I was looking for a specific BBM DVD pic for the TOTW yesterday evening, which I didn't find in the end, and so, so many Heath pics came up. Yes I know, not exactly surprising, and I'm the one who posts a Heath pic every day, so I'm looking quite often for Heath pics. But still, yesterday evening it hit me all over again :(.
Yes, it comes in waves. :'(




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It does come in waves,and for me is getting worse again with the imminent release of TDK.
If it is any consollation your pictures brighten up my morning coffee every day. No matter how bad my son has been,I do the final bus run,put the coffee on and settle down to my daily treat of Heath.It has become pretty much a ritual now.
So you certainly brighten my day,even if it is sometimes a bitter sweet thing.
I had not considered how hard it must be for you sometimes,trawling through lots of Heath photos, so we all get our fix.
So here's to you I say.
As the sun must be past the yard arm somewhere in the world,I will raise a glass to you !!!!!!!

Lynne:
{{{{{{{{Friends}}}}}}}}

It's a GDBoaUS.  I was reading in the Movies thread that I'M NOT THERE is available for sale today.  I saw it at Blockbuster for rent yesterday and intentionally skipped over it (and re-watching CANDY) in favor of RENDITION, just for now.

Seeing BBM on Saturday freshened the loss...

RouxB:
This week, weirdly, had some pretty bad moments for me. I watched Candy which, I think, set it off. Then I saw TDK trailer on TV and that just finished me off. I have heard from others that this was a bad week for them as well-I think it's the impending release of the movie.

ninisin2005:
I was at the mall slaving away relentlessly at Hot Topic where I work. A day just like any other. The phone rings and my fellow manager Winona answers it. She hands the phone to me stating that it was for me. I answer hoping that I'm not going to get in trouble for having a personal phone call while on the clock. My worries dissappear as my friend jeni speaks softly on the other end of the line. She says, "Henry, Heath died this afternoon." I was immediately pissed off at her. She knows how serious I would take her statement and how unhappy that would make me if that were really to happen. I told her "jeni, that's not funny." jeni said, "Henry, I wouldn't lie to you about something like this." I immediately started to cry. Winona looks at me with wild wondering eyes. I hang up the phone and turn away and walk head down to the back room. She follows and consols me as I tell her what happened. I still cry sometimes.
Of course when someone moves you in such a way that changes your life, you'll never fully recover from their departure. I don't ever want to recover. I want to miss him forever. After Heath passed away, I found myself missing someone I never met. Inside, I was terrified of this feeling. Maybe I am a little crazy and obsessed. Maybe I do need to talk about this to a professional. I kept thinking, "Now that Heath is gone, I will never get to thank him. I will never get to meet him. I will never see another Heath Ledger movie that I haven't already seen." My best friend called me from Germany. Crying once again, I told her how I felt. Her advise to me was to write Heath a letter. Whether I send it to some random address or whether I keep it for myself, writing down what I need to say will help me rediscover myself. I thanked her for her wonderful advise and ended the call. Though I never did write the letter, I found a new way to cope. Heath can see me typing this post right now. He can feel what I feel. He knows what he's done for me. His passing into whatever is after this life allows him to feel everyone he has influenced. I know that when he felt me, he smiled. I know that when he sees me typing this, he realizes what he has done. And it is good. Heath is gone. He's not coming back. But he can see and feel you now. Know this, and smile back. Thank you Heath. For everything. In a different way, "we was good friends." -Henry

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