Brokeback Mountain: Our Community's Common Bond > Heath Ledger Remembrance Forum
I know we've talked about this before, but
optom3:
--- Quote from: Mandy21 on July 26, 2008, 06:06:49 pm ---Fiona, please forgive me for having brought up a painful memory for you. I've read a great deal of your posts these last few months, but I'd completely forgotten that you had to go through that memory, or I would have kept my damned mouth shut with my post about how hard it is to get OTC medicine in Britain.
My only point was, and I've never considered suicide, so how would I really know -- it just seems to me that if someone wants to kill themselves with drugs, they'll find a way, no matter how many bubble-wrapped dividers come between them and the almighty.
From the second I watched the newscast where they came across and said, just casually, out of the blue, that Heath Ledger was found dead blah-blah-blah, like it was barely even noteworthy, and I dropped my dinner glass, and said Jesus God No and sat there in my dead daddy's chair, in front of my poor sick 79-year-old mother, without speaking, or barely breathing, for an uncountable amount of time ----- from the second I watched that, never then, and never since, and never now, would it have ever occurred to me that Heath would knowingly take himself out of this world.
It's just not possible for anyone to even think such a thing, of Heath.
It was a tragic accident, in his case. Nothing more, nothing less.
That's all I was saying. Please forgive me, Fiona. Thank you.
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You are so lovely, there is nothing to forgive.
In fact I think the more people know and are made aware of the risk with some seemingly harmless OTC meds. the better.
I find it insane that there is not in this century a universal drug code.So no matter the country, the generic at least has the same name everywhere. I also find it odd when so much information is held on us, why is there not a universal pharmacy list.
At very least each country should have their own list.How mad is it, that here in arguably the most developed country, people can go from one doctor or walk in clinic to the next.Then collect prescriptions as they go and get them made up at different pharmacies !!!!!
Wallgreens have never asked or checked with me, if I get other medications anywhere else.I do. Some are cheaper at Wallgreens and some at Wallmart.Fortunately,at least my psychiatrist knows everything I am on, including PK's that he did not prescribe. I do find it all very haphazard and now having lived her for a couple of years,can see how easy accidental overdoses are.
It would be interesting to compare figures with other countries, where much more cross checking an referencing are done.
You however to re track, have nothing to be sorry about.I find the more I post about things,the easier they are to deal with.Holding it all in has never been good for me.
So if I look at it that way, you have done me a favour!!!
Katie77:
--- Quote from: Mandy21 on July 26, 2008, 06:06:49 pm ---From the second I watched the newscast where they came across and said, just casually, out of the blue, that Heath Ledger was found dead blah-blah-blah, like it was barely even noteworthy, and I dropped my dinner glass, and said Jesus God No and sat there in my dead daddy's chair, in front of my poor sick 79-year-old mother, without speaking, or barely breathing, for an uncountable amount of time ----- from the second I watched that, never then, and never since, and never now, would it have ever occurred to me that Heath would knowingly take himself out of this world.
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Mandy, I am speechless after reading that paragraph in your last post. Reading your words, brought that day back to the very second that I too first heard the news about Heath, and once again, it has left me absolutely breathless, and so dam sad, and yes, exactly the same thoughts went thru my mind, no dam way would he have done that on purpose, no dam way. Yes, maybe he was careless, maybe he was confused about how many meds he could take or had taken, but never never suicidal.
And I dont think any of us will ever forget that moment that you so aptly described in your post.
optom3:
--- Quote from: Katie77 on July 27, 2008, 04:35:19 am ---Mandy, I am speechless after reading that paragraph in your last post. Reading your words, brought that day back to the very second that I too first heard the news about Heath, and once again, it has left me absolutely breathless, and so dam sad, and yes, exactly the same thoughts went thru my mind, no dam way would he have done that on purpose, no dam way. Yes, maybe he was careless, maybe he was confused about how many meds he could take or had taken, but never never suicidal.
And I dont think any of us will ever forget that moment that you so aptly described in your post.
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I kept thinking it was a mistake and any minute, they would announce that he was not conscious but, the paramedics had started him breathing, and he was on his way to hospital.
Later when I read that he wa still alive when his housekeeper went into replace a bulb.I kept thinking, why didn't you go in again, did his breathing not seem odd.Over and over I had thee thoughts.I could not and still not get it out of my head that he died while she was inthe house.
I know it is irrational.
Mandy21:
Thank you for your kind words, Fiona and Sue. I certainly didn't mean to make anybody speechless :o
Reading my words back, though, gave me chills. Geez, I gotta be more careful how I say things.
I think the only thing that snapped me out of my shock and horror and stupor during those eternal moments was my mom sitting next to me, aged 79, saying "oh that's a shame, i'm sure michelle and matilda will miss him".
I didn't even know my mother knew who Heath Ledger was, and the newscaster didn't say anything at all about his family or relationships.
You just gotta love old folks and their addiction to The National Enquirer, don'tcha?
I actually laughed, at my mom, for a brief second, before the dinner tray went by the wayside, and I curled up in a ball and the tears came rolling, as I said "yeah, mom, i'm sure they will...."
Ellemeno:
Heath sure aged a lot in his last very few months, didn't he?
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