Artiste, the situation with Brokeback Mountain is pretty much the same in Islamic countries as it is in every other country. There are backwards people in every country and in every culture. I understand that a muslim person was responsible for your lover's death and if that happened to me, I'm sure that it would scar me forever. I don't blame you for feeling the way you do. However, try to understand that an individual caused this to happen, not a culture, a country, or a religion.
I wish that I could hug you now. I am hugging you in spirit, friend.