Thank you Monika, Front-Ranger and CellarDweller for your welcome. I appreciate that a lot. I can say little more at this time without losing it. We were not cowboys, but seaman on a ship. I was a scrawny, very young and naive 19-year old while he was big and strong, funny, and knew everything. With him I felt safe, and every day was an adventure. So much time has passed, I would think it would get easier to bear. You can just imagine how I felt to hear Ennis say "Jack, I swear." It's what I had been saying for a long time.