Also, I don't know that Jack ever believed he'd be better off dead or that being tortured and killed was what he wanted, just that in his world it seemed the best way to save Ennis and that was his focus at the time he made the deal with Hinestroza. Is Jack damaged? Yes, undoubtedly. But I've worked with a lot of damaged men and many of them come back from that. People are remarkably resilient, with love and some pride and a purpose. I don't think Jack's got to spend the next decade on a shrink's couch in order to live a "normal" life. But then again, I'm not big on psychiatrists, so that's my own bias. LOL. Will he ever completely outrun his demons? I doubt it. Can he learn to live with them? Yes.