I miss you on weekends

[RebelWithASmile]

so, me and Bill aren't friends anymore, because i have 'too many problems' and i only 'bring him down.' That's the pot calling the kettle black.


anyways, he said i can rot for all he cares, and i said that i would never forgive him for calling me a fag behind my back (to save himself, of course) and that he was pathetic, worthless and a breathing piece of shit fake liar that is alone.


his rebuttal? he doesn't want to fight, he just doesn't want to talk to me ever again, and yes, i can still rot. 



it doesn't bother me as much as I thought it would


any recommendations, please?

i plan on letting him go, but i wrote a very interesting poem about him, but i can't post it here, as it's not nice. BUT IT'S COMPLETELY TRUTHFUL,

AND HILARIOUS!!!

its not very artistic, more fun than anything. If anyone dares a read, PM me


i've been listening to Nelly Furtado's 'All Good Things (Come to an End)' 

i usually don't like her music, but i really love this song, it's so smooth.



lyrics




Honestly what will become of me
don't like reality
It's way too clear to me
But really life is daily
We are what we don't see
Missed everything daydreaming

[Chorus]
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?

Traveling I only stop at exits
Wondering if I'll stay
Young and restless
Living this way I stress less
I want to pull away when the dream dies
The pain sets in and I don't cry
I only feel gravity and I wonder why

Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?

Well the dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could
Dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could
Die die die die die

Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?

Well the dogs were barking at a new moon
Whistling a new tune
Hoping it would come soon
And the sun was wondering if it should stay away for a day til the feeling went away
And the sky was falling on the clouds were dropping and
the rain forgot how to bring salvation
the dogs were barking at the new moon
Whistling a new tune
Hoping it would come soon so that they could die.



i love the video too


here it is. Please view and tell me what you all think!

i need some love right now

[injest]

poor Pheonix....

I am so sorry that sounds like a horrible fight.

It is hard to be a teenager isn't it? So many things you can't control.

{{{{Reb}}}}

wish I knew some great insight to give you. All I can say is that this too will pass. It will get better. I promise.

[Shasta542]

That's a beautiful song---I always like Nelly Furtado, tho. And I like the video too.

You know, as much as I'd like to be (or at least feel) younger---I'm okay because now I can see what I wish I'd known when I actually  was  younger. Life is so much easier when you cut out the people who are toxic for you. I'm sorry you have to go through the bad stuff---but if you keep your goals for your life in sight--you'll get to the good stuff soon enough!!

Take care and to you!!

[Lumière]

Hey Phoenix,

Dropping you a little hello! 

Hoping you are standing strong (or trying to) and taking care of yourself.

Hugs to ya!

~M

[RebelWithASmile]

in a nut shell


-my internet was turned off (i'm at the library)

- we still don't have our own house

-I'm not talking to Bill, but i found some shit out, and i feel sorry for him

-i'm a believer in God now. He's help me get strength to go through (as there's no way but through)

-i've been praying/meditating, and i'll continue to do so

-i'm starting a new school, and i'm looking foward to it.

-i'm still a little sore. Is there anyone out there that is still sore from their first major infatuation

[Shakesthecoffecan]

Somewhere I missed the part about you loosing your house, sorry to hear about that.

Hey Dude, I am proud of you!

[RebelWithASmile]

9/24



The new school's not bad...i like this dude with long hair...he's in my Psychology class. The people here are boring/bland/dumb...i don't belong here...i don't have interesting friends, but i'm remaining positive.

i know some gay people here

and in this game i have, you can make out with guys and girls to gain health

i luv it!


i've just been relaxing....loneliness has set in at times

[Shakesthecoffecan]

So like can you hang out with these gay people you have come in contact with or are they not your type?

Big Hug, for our littlest brother:


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[Br. Patrick]

The new school's not bad...

You bring up an important aspect right at the beginning... NEW!  and since I have been into definitions lately:

New:
Having come into being only a short time ago; recent; still fresh; just found; discovered; not previously experienced or encountered; different from the former or the old; changed for the better; rejuvenated.

Some thoughts to ponder!  New is GOOD!

{{{[[ {{hugs  & PRAYERS!}}   (((for "The Perfect Prayer" check out my near-death thread))) ]]}}} 
br. p

[RebelWithASmile]

thanks, but i am remaining positive.


Mulholland Drive is the best movie ever! David Lynch is my new favorite director.

Has anyone seen Mulholland Drive? AND IF YOU HAVEN'T, GO RENT IT NOW!!!! it is simply amazing, its very perfected, and slick, and smart, and provoking. I HAVEN'T Marked this much over a movie since Brokeback Mountain!

Mulholland Drive, i cannot ruin, but theres elements to it that would satisfy any Brokeback fan.


if you watch it, WATCH IT ALL, though its weird, and etc...its well worth it. David Lynch loves using symbols. My myspace (which i made) is of Mulholland Drive.

myspace.com/estrangedbloodquill