The first time I saw the film, my mind was completely taken over by images of Jack and Ennis; scenes were playing left and right.. I felt like I was losing it. To add to that, I wanted to be left alone, I needed time to think, time to myself, time to reflect on somethings ... I even lost my appetite at one point, I felt like I was going insane! The friday after that first viewing, I was supposed to meet up with friends, cancelled those plans and stayed home!..thinking . Then the following Saturday and Sunday, I went back and saw the film again. It was abit wierd, the way I was feeling seemed pretty "out there" because I hadn't felt this way about another movie. I gradually accepted my addiction, but that first week was something else
THAT!
boy, that coulda been me writing that. sounded so familiar I went
while reading it. never had such a reaction to a film before. actually don't know if I've had such a reaction period, to anything. it's all way too kooky
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other irrationals. wearing my stetson and Cool-Texas-Boots again, buying and wearing a Brokeback t-shirt (plain black, text only with "I wish I knew how to quit you" printed in white), buying a new DVD player just so I could watch my region one disc four months prior to the region four release date, spending an inordinate number of hours debriefing with you cyberfolk, listening to nothing but the soundtrack or youtube tracks for past three months, avoiding seeing Jake or Heath in anything else, getting as excited as a teenager about all sorts of 'silly' things again, and last but not least, seeing one film 12 times in 12 weeks.
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