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Brokeback Mountain: Our Community's Common Bond => The Lighter Side => Topic started by: RouxB on May 27, 2006, 07:56:04 pm
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While many, well most, people that know of my "addiction" think I'm silly or crazy, I embrace my obession. I love my addiction because:
I've met all you wonderful people
The movie gave me comfort and diversion during a tough time
I fell in love with Ennis and Jack and love is a great thing
I have a new appreciation of cinema (and Fanfic)
I am a "fanatic" for the first time in my life-go Heathens, go Heathens
I am engaged to be married to Jake G.-he doesn't know yet but when he finds out I think he'll be happy about it...
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While many, well most, people that know of my "addiction" think I'm silly or crazy, I embrace my obession. I love my addiction because:
I've met all you wonderful people
RouxB - I completely agree with you. The friends - the real human connections that have been made, are extraordinary. BBM set something in motion for us, and now we are playing it out in our own lives with each other. The honesty with which you have shared the story of your journey inspires so much! And to see that we are moving forward together, buoyed by the companionship of other souls of the same journey, makes me certain that this isn't just an abberant obsession, but each of us responding to an undeniable need for change.
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You two are spot on. I saw this film because I was rediscovering life and I rediscovered life because of this film. My change had begun prior to february 2006, but it took an amazingly unpredicted turn in a smallish cinema megaplex in a town called Indooroopilly. Some consider themselves Heathens, others go by Jakeophiles, I am true blue, through and through a CT Devotee.
It's largely because of you people I'm like this; Everything! Everywhere! I have connected with people all over the world which only intensifies my lust to explore. Today I am a person who can say 'thankyou', 'sorry', 'I was wrong', 'I was right', 'I love you', 'I want', 'I need', and 'I'm willing'. It has been a long time since I have been able to promise 'I am', 'I can', 'I will'!
I can pour my heart out and speak my mind. I am realising that I can be liked without feeling threatened. I can be disliked without feeling failure.
My relationships and my confidence have begun to repair. I love my BBM obsession, but more over, I love my new friends. They are teaching me to be more real than most people I have sat down for a meal with.
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((((Ray)))) That's such a beautiful post. I'm so glad you got the Fever and found Chez Tremblay! :-*
Where's that group hug smiley when you need it?
((((((((Tremblayans and Brokies everywhere))))))))
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I love my BbM obsession in that it fuels my passion in all other areas of my life. (Maybe this is why my husband doesn't mind it so much. ;))
And I'm gonna break rules and give a second reason in the same post. I love my BbM obsession because it's brought me here. And after the home I share with my immediate family and my home on the lake when I was a teenager, I've never felt so much at home in any other place in my life. I've certainly never felt so much at home in any other online venue, save for Chez Tremblay, of course, but I see this as an extension of that. I've posted at many online forums and still post at a couple others. But more and more I feel less and less accepted at those because truth is, I never really was. I was sort of put up with - barely tolerated. Criticized for being too passionate for my own good after GWB won/stole the last election and after Hurricane Katrina exposed just how apathetic his administration is about anyone that doesn't further their agenda and most recently after Black Sunday, aka March 5, 2006.
Not once has anyone here said, Barb, you've got to lighten up. (At least not seriously, anyway. ;)) I feel like I am truly among my people here - my family. I can't begin to tell you all how good I feel about that.
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I love that Barb hasn't lightened up. Actually, a little MORE passion might be nice. ;)
BTW, what's Black Sunday (March 5th)? Some things just don't matter anymore.
PS: Today, I've been a BetterMost member for exactly 100 days! (198 posts averaging 1.980 posts per day!)
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((((Ray)))) That's such a beautiful post. I'm so glad you got the Fever and found Chez Tremblay! :-*
Where's that group hug smiley when you need it?
((((((((Tremblayans and Brokies everywhere))))))))
(http://i79.photobucket.com/albums/j125/yaadpyar/SpecialCTGroupHug.jpg)
(cowboy hats courtesy of wonderful Ray)
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Thanks, Celeste (and Ray)! I've now saved the hug for future use. ;D
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I love that Barb hasn't lightened up. Actually, a little MORE passion might be nice. ;)
BTW, what's Black Sunday (March 5th)? Some things just don't matter anymore.
Ah, so true. It really doesn't matter to me anymore, either, but it mattered a whole helluva lot at the time. However, don't let that make you think I've forgiven them. Never. And never again.
And other than my husband, you're the only one to ever say that first bit.
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I love my obsession because:
at the same time as it's brought me closer to the really important people in my life, it's given me some much needed insight into others. would that my hubby were as cogniscent of the direct connnections as Barb's!
it's a secret joy that I carry with me everywhere. it gilds my days :). rider added to the effect it may not be especially secret for much longer, given I'm now the proud owner of a nicely hip bag with "I wish I knew how to quit you" printed on it. already this morning I had a gay fellow at my local deli stare very hard at it, then at me, then back at the bag ;D.
I've been able to spend many lovely hours online with folk who are almost disconcertingly 'familiar'.
it's given me an excuse to dust off my stetson and boots - they'd been buried since the horses were adgisted out 2 yrs ago.
I could go on and on.
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his belt buckle."
Britt has seen the first 20 minutes of BBM once, and very dark tent scenes 3 times. I was trying my DVDs out on his equipment. Althouhgh he has, he says, no interest in seeing the movie, he always seems to have something to say about Jack. During the first 20 minutes, he said something directly to Jack, ending unpleasantlty in "baby," which I understood to mean he thought Jack was somewhat of a preditor. This afternoon, he said he was afraid "that guy" was going to castrate himself with his belt buckle. After a few mninutes thought about how little he'd actually seen, and what he had heard, of the first tent scene, this made some sense. I answerred, "If that had happened, i assure you all kinds of people of all kinds of sexes would be devistated." He loooked a little shocked. ":Devistated?" "Yes, devistated."
A few minutes later, i was sitting on the back poarch, cutting cloth for quilting, and tryng to sound liike Marlene Dietrich singing "Lili Marlene," when he came out and dropped something, cloth, or thread, or something, on my head. "Oh dear, am I bothering you?" I asked. "No I love your voice," he said.
Which lead me to believe I had made some sort of a pass at him.
Unsere beiden Schatten
sahen wie eine aus
Dass wir lieb uns hatten
das sah man gleich daraus.
Und alle Leute
sollen es sehen
wenn wir bei der
Laterne stehen
Wie einst, Lili Marlene,
wie eins, Lili Marlene.
Our two shadows
looked like one
That we loved eachother
Anyone could easily see from that.
And everybody
should see it
when we stand by the lantern
as once we did, Lili Marlene
as one, Lili Masrlene.
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I love my Brokback Mountain obsession because I now know that I CAN become obsessed! Before Brokeback came into my life I didn't get excited about much of anything.
I love my obsession because it brought me to you guys, and that is such a big deal in my life, you don't know! I have met some of you in person, and I can't even begin to tell you how much that means to me! I have been so isolated all my life, and now because of this beautiful jewel of a movie, I know that people will reach out to me, as I have learned to reach out!
I love my Brokeback obsession because I now know that I have taste and can recognize quality! :)
Because of brokeback, I believe in love again. I have witnessed true love!
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Apart from the other and far more weighty reasons why I have loved and continue to love my BBM obsession, I was reminded of one more reason today.
I was rushing around the supermarket, everything taking too much time, lots and lots of stressed-out people milling about in pre-christmas chaos, overloaded shopping carts, noise level high, syrupy-sweet carols warbling annoyingly about stars and kings through the shopping noise..... when suddenly my eyes caught on a stand of delicacies and I just had to stop and stand there for a little while, taking a breath, smiling fondly.
They were selling a brand of tapas called Tapas - Del Mar.
So....... I love my BBM obsession because it can make little insignificant everyday occurences into reminders of Ennis and / or Jack and thereby really brighten my day. In the middle of stress and chaos BBM can suddenly give me a dozy, happy little moment.
:) :) :)
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I love that, Mika! Instead of "taking time to stop and smell the roses" we BBM devotees can get the same lift from taking time to stop and think of Our Boys. :-*