...what scares me in a way is that I am a straight guy with a wife! Why do I understand this scene so well? It's almost as if I can identify with it somehow. And that is very scary to me.
Well at first I couldnt get enough of BBM. I went out and bought the DVD before I took the one I rented back to the store because I couldnt be without it. I have been on the boards and ebay. I bought a BBM italian charm for my bracelet and when I'm out and start thinking about them I just look at it. I still watch the DVD every couple days but I feel like I have a part of them with me now and so I'm not so obsessed!
Ah Jeff, I so love your writing and I have to thank you for getting me started-I am a decent writer-of letters-but have never attempted any fiction. I understand completely what you mean by writing allowing you to keep them with you. That is exactly what it does for me. I had weird guilt about my AU but I'm over that now. Annie Proulx gave me permission to finish the story however as I saw fit.
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I'm not sure I'm ever going to be able to accept Heath and Jake in other roles. They're lucky the future of their careers doesn't depend on me!
Yeah, I feel the same way, Jeff. I hardly knew them before BBM. Now I've seen Jarhead and Moonlight Mile with Jake in them. I didn't like either of them. I've seen Keith in Casanova and A Knight's Tales and they were "ok", but none of those movies matched up to Ennis and Jack in BBM.
I've stopped watching the movie for now. Six times was enough for me to know what happens and how I will feel every time I watch it. I'm reading Annie's Collection of short stories, "Open Range". She is a very interesting writer, I mean, the language she captures and invents. Her characters and plots are so convincing; you just know they are based on real life. I'm enjoying her very much.
I do come here to talk about stuff still though, so I'll be seeing you around here...
Rayn
Well I am certainly doing better today than I was a few days ago after first watching the movie. All the crying stopped now (see my post under Get In Touch With Your Feelings), I can actually watch this movie with more awe and amazement. I love the entire movie, but my favourite scene is the "Let Me Be" scene. Each time I see it, I pick up more and more.
And what scares me in a way is that I am a straight guy with a wife! Why do I understand this scene so well? It's almost as if I can identify with it somehow. And that is very scary to me.
I read the posts under the Steps thread. It's amazing how accurate that post is to how I feel. So I guess that others have travelled down this road before me.
I am so glad that I found this forum, it really helps to know that I am not the only person feeling this way. I feel that there is something "left open" in my life and I can't identify it, but I feel that if I do and deal with it all will return to normal. So I am seriously reevaluating my life and beginning to deal with all the issues(and I didn;t think I had any!) and strangely enough I am finding a very relaxing warm calm.
I watched BBM once again. It still has the way effect on me, I love the film, the joys and sorrows in it, but I don't dwell on it afterwards very much. The one thing that I 'm thankful for is a greter appreication of music. I listen to country and western more now and like it a lot.
Rayn
I listen to country and western more now and like it a lot.I myself am much more appreciative of country and Western music than ever before, and it's thanks to this movie. On my last return drive home from Kerrville with my sister, I had my sister's car radio tuned to a country-and-Western station the whole way, and found the music comforting and inspiring. This music is of the earth (is "earthy"), and listening to it makes me feel grounded and centered.
Did you know that in the American West, before the term "Country & Western" was devised, the local name for this type of music was "Heart Songs"?No, I didn't know that; very interesting! "Heart Songs" are certainly an apt description for much of this music--at its best, it is sincere, without pretension, and utterly from the heart.
Help.........
I feel like a drug addict needing a fix. Has anyone else experienced this feeling?????????
The OBSESSION Continues....................