Here's some non BBm stuff I wrote.
I sit alone in sadness
all solitude and pain
my head is hung in despair
hiding all my shame
the bridges I have burned
losses beyond cost
The price of lessons learned
the cries of souls I've lost
Tomorrow is another day
oh hate, oh scorn, oh rage
will the sunlight ever come
can I start another page?
Why do i love
let me stop I pray
I'd rather die alone
than live my life this way
the pain the grief the tears
the memories and fears
aren't worth the smiiles I've shared
scattered across the years
tiny sunlight isles
in a sea of tortured pain
can't chase away the clouds
can't stop the bitter rain!
Well he came for a visit and stayed a few days
we relived our past and our younger days
thats what it's all about when your among friends
we talked all night and laughed at the dawn
the music we made such a happy song
thats what it'a all about when your among friends
well the time it flies then it's time to go
the memories like dust fly in the wind that blows
but your heart stays behind when your among friends.
I'm a city boy but i think tonight with a pressed white shirt
and my Jeans on tight I'll be a Cowboy through and through by the mornin light.
The dance floors wide like a country mile
I got a chance tonight so says his smile
I've got nothin to lose but these big city blues
in his arms the world feels so right
he's loving me and I'm holding him tight
The passion rises high like a fire in the night
I'm a city boy but if I had my way
here in his arms is where I'd stay
I'll be his cowboy and he my Rodeo star
Well the suns come up it's another day
through the crowds I make my way
that cowboy's just a memory
but one day soon I'm leaving this place
one less rat to run the race
with the wind in my hair and the sun on my face
I'll be chasing that setting sun.
but I'm stuck here in this 9-5 grind
pushin a pen barly gettin by
but in a cloud of dust we're riding the trails inmy mind
leavin these big city blues so far behind.
I'm lost with out you
can't hide my soul from eberyone I meet
i'm walkin down a lonely dark and dead end street.
The tears sting my eyes but the fire burns inside for you
only you
I can't eat I can't sleep
my mind's a jumbled mess
my God i'm in so deep
I just can't seem to see
the cards are always stacked against me.
Eyes of brown
comforting warm
i want to drown
lost down deep
beauty kindness
there's nothing else
i'm caught in his stare
I don't want to come back
I want to stay in there
I woke today for the very first time
The sky's not been so blue
the sun never so bright
yesterday's a distant dream
tomorrow not yet born
I'm standing a moment
a moment called truth
Revelation and Epiphany
have drawn the curtains back
on ahead i go
Further up further in
a new reality waits to begin.