I'm not sure Kelda. For a long time I was quite shy, but over the years I've broken out of that mold. The thing I often wonder about is if any of those people who bullied me back in school now regret what they did. Does it haunt them now? Do they ever think about it? At all? Probably not.
This makes me think of that scene from the movie Flatliners, where Kevin Bacon is haunted by the memories of the little girl he tormented in grade school. He ends up apologizing to her, and she forgives him. He didn't do it willingly though. The memories started haunting him after his near death experience, or rather death experiments.
Nobody has ever looked me up though. No phone calls. No letters. No nothing. Like I said, I doubt they ever think about it, nor are they probably concerned about it in the least.
I've thought about that too. So much so at one time, that I put my profile up at Classmates.com to see if I would get any responses.
I got people who looked at or signed into my guest book, but no messages or anything from anyone.
I'm sure they feel no regret for what they did. To them, it was harmless fun/teasing.
I absolutely refused to go to my 10 year reunion. I debated going to my 20th, which just passed last year, and again decided not to go. I saw no reason to go there and sit in a room with a bunch of people who made my life hell, and now have them try to pretend we were friends.