I know that I have already posted some spiritual material on this board, in my effort to reveal that Brokeback Mountain continues to remain a force of spiritual manifestation in our everyday lives, and that we can continue to experience benefit by understanding that fact. Meditations, Spiritual Nonsense amd other threads which have since sunk into the lower depths of this board have all attempted to bring the spiritual focus to the forefront.
In many ways, this is what Brokeback Mountain did for me. It brought the realm of the spirit, the mind, and the heart that much closer to my perceptions and I could grasp their intensity and their infinite depth of meaning. Sometimes I have felt very alone in this understanding, and I wonder why no one has been able (or perhaps willing) to address the same things that I have seen. If that sounds selfish or self-absorbed, I apologize.... My thoughts are my own, though... and although I would not expect everyone to have the same thoughts as myself, I feel very lonely and sometimes depressed when no one near me seems to understand me, let alone experience any spiritual understanding when I feel as though I am revealing the heart of the universe.
It is not so difficult for me to imagine myself, in one way, as a mad prophet who sees truths that no one else can perceive. I am the lone voice in the wilderness, the caller in the crowd. But my words sometimes seem to fall on deaf ears, although those who had ears to hear I am extremely grateful for your friendship and acquaintance. I realize this preamble is quite long, but it is somewhat necessary I think.
As beautiful as it is to wonder about the many ramifications of the film, without an understanding of how to spiritually apply that knowledge in our lives, I feel that we are merely scratching the surface. It has long been my intention to introduce a radio program to Radio BBM that could air once a week to help aid our spiritual development and maturation, and our greater understandings of the metaphysical realities laid out in the film. No teacher in Brokeback Mountain led us by the hand to experience, remember, and recall the ultimate reality of the Universe.... but perhaps that is because the true searcher must discover this for himself. I am not even saying that the film is the only way to experience this type of reflection of infinity, the crystalization of all, the seed at the core of the heart of man, but merely one of many.... But my voice is imperfect and ill-suited for such a program, I think, and I would not wish the ill effects of my rasping, lisping syllables to scratch your sensitivities.
Nevertheless, this idea has been growing in my mind, and I feel it almost necessary to do what I can to make this message clear. And to be clear, I do not think I have the ideal plan for man firmly in my mind, nor any other such monstrosity. I am merely saying what I feel called to say, and expect no one to hearken to these words too deeply. It is offered with all of the simplicity, love, hope, and beauty that I can muster and if one of you is touched by it, then let it fill your life with the light of truth, so that you may shine freely in the presence of others. This has always been my most fervent of prayers. I know that some people think that I think I am special, that I have a special purpose or a destiny on this planet, and this is not necessarily my truth. What I have been called to tell you is that we are all special, and that we all have a special purpose or a destiny. It is me, but not merely me. The Cosmos is the union of all spirits, whose perfect imperfections have clarified the mind's eye. The mote that floats before us endangers all eyes, and sometimes our own fallibilities are the very weaknesses we need to recognize what we most need to do next.
So as an introduction to this thread, I would like to present my thanks for the opportunities that both the film and this community have provided for my own spiritual and personal growth... my life is significantly better than it was, my eye more clear, the mirror no longer tarnished but cleansed of sooty residue. If my language is too symbolic, I apologize; it is the only way that I can express myself as I most need to be expressed. And if we have learned nothing else from the film of Brokeback Mountain, I hope it is to listen to our hearts' own calling and respond to it, even when it would not make sense to do so.
Parts of this thread are excerpts from Caterina Rando's Learn to Power Think: A Practical Guide to Positive and Effective Decision Making.