[b]Good evening, all you wonderful Brokeback-loving
ladies. Apologies for not participating in this forum as much as I thought I would. Had a little trouble in the beginning with the way it worked, still haven't got it down, but thought it time for me to thank everyone of you for your honest outpourings in response to this phenomenon we are experiencing.
I woke up Monday, after the awards, and felt as though I had been kicked in the chest, and I couldn't help weeping and mourning all over again (and I thought I might have been through with that phase of things! LOL) What I was feeling was so much sadness, particularly for Heath and Jake (and he [Jake] seemed to have just dropped under the radar - haven't heard a bit about him since before the awards). And also alienation -- like we have this tiny, tiny minority who seem to "get" this film's message and we'd just had gotten shot down. And my own sense of alienation, a life-long thing, just so rarely finding a person, or persons with whom I feel completely free to be myself. A deep, old lonesome aching thing I remember having when I was quite young. [/b] So I got through the day, just on the edge of tears all the time, and finally late in the afternoon got in to see my wise therapist, whose Kleenex I consumed with great gusto, and then when I had spilled it all out to her, and my hour was over I began to feel better than I have for months and today my spirits and energy had miraculously lifted, like a dark cloud had at last dispersed. I am convinced that this film has and continues to have some deep transformational energy for me, it's like a dream that I get to keep coming back to and savoring in all its detail and learning more aspects of myself each time. And this evening I read the story over again and wept anew. The best to all of you as we continue this journey. Iris
