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Offline j.U.d.E.

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HEATH ON MY MIND..
« on: January 29, 2008, 08:10:08 pm »
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Praz-de-Lys, France - 27 JAN 2008

I've just come back from a 6 day holiday trip to France and it was very very difficult to enjoy it, especially since the friend and the rest of the group I was travelling with weren't bothered by Heath's passing in any way...

But I was surrounded by mountains, beautiful views and sunshine, which made me miss BM a little less. Fabienne and I were texting back and fourth and we were on the phone too. Fabienne, I was so happy to have someone to share this with, while I was so far away from BM - having no access to the internet and no papers (or out-dated ones).. James (jura86), a biiig hug for you too! It's wonderful to have been in contact with you and to have shared with you our grief, while I was up there in the mountains.. [thank you for your mail, I will answer soon]

Anyway, the reason for this thread - and forgive me for taking up space for my own, but I didn't know where to include this - but while I was in France, the beautiful sunshine and mountains surrounding me, made me want to make a symbolic gesture as a tribute to Heath.

I went snowboarding in a little place, about 40km away from the Mont Blanc (which you can see on the pictures) and on Sunday morning I had some time to myself and went up the slopes alone. The weather was just gorgeous and I found the perfect place to remember Heath up the mountains at about 1500m altitude. It was a place off the slopes, windy and quite steep, but I was determined to accomplish what I had planned that day! I had bought some postcards the day before and had written a few words on the back. It’s not high-flying prose and some of it is borrowed, but it expresses the words that were in my mind and soul.


HEATH
1979-2008

The mountain forever, eternal, but it is empty now. I wonder where you are.
Screams are echoing in my mind. I hear your voice, but turn around in vain. There is no sound.
You left them and you will never grow old. You died alone…
I have never met you, but you broke into my heart. It haunts me.
Escape. Dance. Sleep in peace. You are beautiful.
No one sees you now, but the silver moon.


I then wrapped it in a see-through plastic bag and stuck it tight in a nearby tree. I think it might actually survive up there for a while. I'd like to think that in the summer, when all the snow is gone, it will be too high for anyone to take it off.


Then I did some more weird stuff, when I found and bought little plastic horses..






I’m gone for another two days now, but will be back on BM at the end of the week.

j.U.d.E.

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Re: HEATH ON MY MIND while I was in France..
« Reply #1 on: January 29, 2008, 09:00:16 pm »
{{{j. U. d. E.}}}  Thank you for coming by and sharing your story and beautiful photos.   :-*

I definitely know what you mean about finding it difficult to be around folks who aren't as impacted by Heath's passing as we all are here.  It's such a difficult situation to come to terms with.



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Re: HEATH ON MY MIND while I was in France..
« Reply #2 on: January 30, 2008, 12:07:21 am »
Jude,

That's wonderful that you found a private space to express your feelings about Heath.  Thanks for sharing with us.

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Re: HEATH ON MY MIND while I was in France..
« Reply #3 on: January 30, 2008, 12:10:52 am »
Jude, that is so sweet!!!

Thank you for doing that for Heath! That was a beautiful thing to do for him!! :)

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Re: HEATH ON MY MIND while I was in France..
« Reply #4 on: January 30, 2008, 01:35:12 am »
Wonderful, Jude!  It's so healing to be able to have a private ceremony to help express your grief.  What you did was very creative and special.  8)

Aw, I love the little horses.... :-*
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Re: HEATH ON MY MIND while I was in France..
« Reply #5 on: January 30, 2008, 02:43:03 am »
There were only the two of them
on the mountain

 flying
in the euphoric, bitter air...

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Re: HEATH ON MY MIND while I was in France..
« Reply #6 on: January 30, 2008, 02:46:23 am »
Riderless horses...

Thank you, Jude.  Grand bisou!

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Re: HEATH ON MY MIND while I was in France..
« Reply #7 on: January 30, 2008, 03:09:52 am »
(((Jude)))

I've been looking forward to seeing your tribute to Heath in the mountains. What can I say, it's beautiful. I hope you felt that you were not alone on that mountain.

I love the horses you put there. Thank you.

There were only the two of them
on the mountain

 flying
in the euphoric, bitter air...


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Re: HEATH ON MY MIND while I was in France..
« Reply #8 on: January 30, 2008, 09:09:13 am »
Jude, that was wonderful. Thank you for sharing your words and pictures. It means so much to me, to see these tributes from all over the world.

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Re: HEATH ON MY MIND while I was in France..
« Reply #9 on: January 30, 2008, 01:09:43 pm »




OMG, {{{{{{JUDE}}}}} this is so beautiful. :-* :-* :-*

I'm so glad to hear you had Fabienne to talk to. It's hard isn't it, when you're out there with only limited access to Internet.

Were you near Chamonix Mt. Blanc? It's an absolutely gorgeous area isn't it?

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