So Celeste and I were chatting and got on the topic of how, and why, we have been so affected by this movie, and our inexplicable devotion to it and our fellow Brokies and decided to share as a form of therapy. Enjoy!
[21:29] yaadpyar: Andrew, friend. After spending time away from CT with friends and family, I realize how deeply pronounced my BBM problem is.
[21:29] yaadpyar: I actually want to tell stories about cute posts and the new board and things that remind me of BBM...
[21:30] littledarlin: and do you think that's good or bad
[21:32] yaadpyar: It concerns me a lot that I am so connected to this movie and friends, etc. I don't know - are you the same? What do you think?
[21:32] littledarlin: well, i have a difficult time articulating exactly what it is about things that move me
[21:33] littledarlin: so to everyone else i'm very "oh i love it"
[21:33] littledarlin: but i usually keep my real feelings private
[21:33] littledarlin: not out of shame or guilt or anything, just because i can't really explain it
[21:33] yaadpyar: Yeah - but this stuff just slips out of me without my realizing it
[21:33] yaadpyar: You seem very self-contained, but equally thoughtful and sincere
[21:34] yaadpyar: I can't remember putting the kind of time and energy into anything that I put into this last week, and it puzzles me a lot.
[21:34] littledarlin: i think it's the power of the internet, really
[21:35] littledarlin: the detachment
[21:35] yaadpyar: how so?
[21:35] littledarlin: the convenience
[21:35] littledarlin: well could you imagine organizing something like this in real life?
[21:36] yaadpyar: I don't like it that this isn't "real life"...
[21:36] yaadpyar: Speaking of which - how do you feel about the DVD party thing?
[21:37] littledarlin: i'd love to go
[21:37] littledarlin: has any progress been made
[21:37] littledarlin: other than we should have a dvd party
[21:37] littledarlin: lol
[21:38] yaadpyar: not that I know of...the Chicago group can certainly get-together. But it's a bit of a big deal for others to come.
[21:38] yaadpyar: Jenny's up for it, which is sweet.
[21:38] littledarlin: yeah there was a thread
[21:39] yaadpyar: I looked at it a little while ago, but it's hard to get consensus from folks all around the world!
[21:39] littledarlin: yep
[21:39] littledarlin: sorry to backtrack, but to add on to our addiction
[21:39] littledarlin: i just thought of something
[21:40] littledarlin: if we weren't doing this, like if we didn't have the imdb boards or whatever
[21:40] littledarlin: do you think we would've been better off?
[21:40] littledarlin: seeing bbm and not being able to connect to other people who felt the same way
[21:41] littledarlin: i think i probably would've lost my mind, because everyone i know liked it, but no one was really moved by it like this
[21:41] yaadpyar: Mind if I share my philosophy a bit? I feel like we were/are a community of souls who are connected somehow, and BBM was the catalyst to bring us into overt community.
[21:42] yaadpyar: We have connected in real-life ways. Y'know - you and I have actually met. And I've PMd and e-mailed and spoken with a number of others on a pretty deep and personal level.
[21:42] yaadpyar: The Inet has been a wonderful way for us to come together, but there's something pretty real here as well.
[21:43] yaadpyar: I think BBM emerged in all of us something similar - and it's why we've become instant friends and real support for something we seem to uniquely understand.
[21:44] littledarlin: i like that theory, i agree with you
[21:44] yaadpyar: I don't think we're just computer geeks looking for on-line fun.
[21:44] littledarlin: right
[21:44] littledarlin: absolutely
[21:45] littledarlin: i think the devotion part spurs from wanting to maintain that connection
[21:45] littledarlin: that's how i am anyway, i felt desperate to defend it
[21:45] littledarlin: which is why, surrounded by boxes, exhausted, having to get up for work in the morning, i'm sitting here going back and forth between talking to you and editing the archive site
[21:46] littledarlin: it doesn't feel tedious or anything, it just feels like something i want to, and have to do
[21:46] yaadpyar: I wouldn't do this to you in person probably, but on-line...BIG hug!
[21:46] littledarlin: lol back at ya
[21:47] yaadpyar: I was so done with IMDb and the trolls and everything...ready to stop posting. And then I threw myself in the middle of everything last week full-force (like Ennis), like I knew I could and would make things better and nothing was going to stop me
[21:47] yaadpyar: Can't remember a time in my entire life when I felt that.
[21:48] yaadpyar: I'm really curious about how open and committed and communicative I am here - I just don't invest myself in anyone/anything this way...
[21:48] littledarlin: yes, that aspect bothers me too
[21:48] littledarlin: because i get that little voice in my head every so often
[21:48] littledarlin: telling me all of the other things i could be doing
[21:49] yaadpyar: We need a BBM therapy thread, but I don't think we'll actually get anywhere!
[21:49] littledarlin: people are dying in iraq.. gotta update the archive.. animals are being needlessly slaughtered... gotta refresh CT.. i could go to city hall and demand equal rights... but theres a 1:20 showing of bbm
[21:50] yaadpyar: LOL
[21:50] yaadpyar: OMG - you should post that on the CT board - you will have everyone laughing
