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Offline Front-Ranger

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Re: I miss you on weekends
« Reply #120 on: February 11, 2007, 01:55:23 pm »
I'm so glad you took this step! As the mother of a 15-year-old boy, I have been wishing you would do this for a long time. I hope things get better for you now.

Too much to do. . .I don't have time to get old!

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Re: I miss you on weekends
« Reply #121 on: February 11, 2007, 01:59:42 pm »
I just came out to my mom last night....


I had to, i had a terrible time at the dance, and she saw the look on my face, and i just cried.


I'm pretty depressed at the moment, but it's cool, i think.



This is a huge step for you!  Anything **at all** we can do to give you some support right now, we're here - just let us know, OK??!!  Hang in there...one step, one minute, one second at a time.

Hugs,
Lynne
"Laß sein. Laß sein."

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Re: I miss you on weekends
« Reply #122 on: February 11, 2007, 04:06:49 pm »
I just came out to my mom last night....

I had to, i had a terrible time at the dance, and she saw the look on my face, and i just cried.

I'm pretty depressed at the moment, but it's cool, i think.

Hiya Phoenix ..

This is huge and I am glad to hear that you came out to your mom! 
I know it hurts right now, but I am hoping that as the days go by, you'll feel better about the decision you made.

I'm sorry to hear you are feeling depressed ..
I thought I'd put a smile on your face, 'cause we all know one person who can do that!  ;)





Remember - you are not alone.  :)


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Re: I miss you on weekends
« Reply #123 on: February 12, 2007, 12:02:07 pm »
Bless you, take a deep breath, calm your mind, we are all so proud of you.  :)
"It was only you in my life, and it will always be only you, Jack, I swear."

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Re: I miss you on weekends
« Reply #124 on: February 12, 2007, 05:38:08 pm »
I regret coming out to her. I told her i was bisexual, which isn't really a lie, because i'm attracted to women, but i'm more interested in men. I prefer men, but women are also a turn on ;D

Thanks to you all.


Lynne, i'm so sorry. This whole past week hasn't been the best. I'll try and send my short story to you via computer/etc.

I told Bill my family would adopt him if his mother allowed it. He's having some problems with his mom's girl friend :'(


I thought coming out would make me feel better, but its kinda the opposite.

Thanks so much Lucise, for the awesome JD collage!

PLEASE tell me what you think of this poem. I really love it, it's one of my own




Silent Happiness

Do you think
Of me when you're down?
Your eyes whisper soft coils
That scream yes
I love you too

It's so easy to love you here
Soft pillows
Warm blankets
Your eyes-
They're thinking
Whether they like what they see
I hope they like me

I want a special little place to hide you
Maybe my heart,
But everyone walks through that
You're the first
That clenches my thirst
I am happy, here in bed

Lying next to you
All day and all night
Till god shuts out the light
And the bed grows cold
And the milk on the table molds
It all seems so pleasant
Your intensity
And friendship
You look after me
I try so hard to give
But you cried to me and said i did

I took your pain away
God knows you did mine
Fingers on back
I love the feel of your spine
The bones are like steps to
Your beautiful face
Something i will never forget
Loving you here, and anyplace.....
"He was very afraid of being hurt. He was afraid of opening up in case it was turned around and used against him."


Heaven holds a sense of wonder

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Re: I miss you on weekends
« Reply #125 on: February 12, 2007, 05:47:36 pm »
Beautiful poetry Phoenix!
Bittersweet .. lovely ..
You are very talented, keep writing ..  :)


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Re: I miss you on weekends
« Reply #126 on: February 12, 2007, 06:59:43 pm »
Lynne, i'm so sorry. This whole past week hasn't been the best. I'll try and send my short story to you via computer/etc.

Hey there, Phoenix,

No worries, please.  If you're like me, you'll send it when you get around to it - I usually get where I'm going, but I'm as slow as Ennis sometimes.  It'll be a nice suprise someday!!

On the other front, hang in there.  It's great you're talking to your Mom about your personal stuff.  Keep the communication open.  I can't imagine how tough things must be for you right now.

And please remember, we're glad to listen - when you're down or up - however you come to us.  There's a line in Latter Days where Lila and Christian converse.  He's asking about how you get through grief, guilt, etc:

Lila: Guilt distracts us from a greater truth... we have an inherent ability to heal.  We seem intent on living through even the worst heartbreak.
Christian:  How?
Lila: Practice


I know it doesn't completely apply here, but I like the part about 'Practice.'  There's a lot to be said for getting up every day and getting through, even if it's (as Brother Patrick told me) 'one nano-second at a time.'

I completely love your poem.  You have so much talent and potential.  Like Milli said - keep on writing!

I took your pain away
God knows you did mine
Fingers on back
I love the feel of your spine
The bones are like steps to
Your beautiful face
Something i will never forget
Loving you here, and anyplace.....

Just lovely!

Hugs,
Lynne
"Laß sein. Laß sein."

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Re: I miss you on weekends
« Reply #127 on: February 13, 2007, 03:46:22 pm »
Hey there, Phoenix,
There's a lot to be said for getting up every day and getting through, even if it's (as Brother Patrick told me) 'one nano-second at a time.'
I completely love your poem.  You have so much talent and potential.  Like Milli said - keep on writing!

I agree about your poetry - wow.  And since Lynne told me about you, I too have been concerned and wanted to share with you my James Dean Scans.  JDEAN.jpg was one of the first GRAPHIC files I ever downloaded from my local BBS. It was in another time, in a text based world.  And they were Gifs.  Jpeg's hadn't been invented yet.   Enjoy!  Your story has truly touched my heart of hearts.   I join all here who Care!

peace :)
br. patrick
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Lean on me, let our hearts beat in time,
Feel strength from the hands that have held you so long.
Who cares where we go on this rugged old road
In a world that may say that we're wrong.

...Cause I know - A love that will never grow old.

Gustavo Santaolalla & Bernie Taupin

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Re: I miss you on weekends
« Reply #128 on: February 14, 2007, 07:07:57 am »
  Well i am so sorry i came late too your party.. A much belated  Happy Birthday  and
hoping you have a wonderful year.
  I see where Scott and Truman have both invited you to visit in safe haven, and
participate by putting input to that thread..  I know it makes you better to talk to
others here on your own blog, but you dont know it yet. But i believe that you
will truly heal in a way you dont even understand yet..by participating in that
part of Bettermost..You will find the interaction and sharing and even possibly helping
others, will come back to you many times over..I really believe you are a very
bright and talented young man.  You have the intelligence to make the right
choices..I am sure in the long run that is what you wil do.  Your friend seems
very nice, but not in a place in his own mind to make the kinds of decisions you
would like for him to make.  Just be patient with him, and give him space..He is a
friend,,and you are his friend..That is a very big thing...Remember that you have
come to a wonderful place.  The people here care about you and each other.
So whenever you need to talk to someone, and give a confidence,You will find it
safe  here to do so.    I know you dont know me from Adam or anyone else, but i
would never say  something to you i didnt believe one hundred per cent.  I
read your whole blog this evening, and it touched me deeply..I wish you
every good thing that life has to offer.  And as the song goes, I wish you
Love..It seems that you have a great deal of that in your life already, and that
is a great blessing, on which you can rely....                 A Friend    Janice
« Last Edit: March 05, 2007, 06:40:21 pm by ifyoucantfixit »



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Re: I miss you on weekends
« Reply #129 on: February 16, 2007, 06:15:14 pm »
Wow, Ennis had James Dean's old trailer!
"It was only you in my life, and it will always be only you, Jack, I swear."