My first time with Brokeback Mountain was at some point in July 2014. My best friend had been nagging me to watch it for YEARS, and I kept putting it off. That day when I finally decided to put it on, I was meaning to stay up as late as I could to prepare myself for a night shift the day after. So around 1am, getting bored to death, I streamed it from some website. It didn't blow me away to say the least at first, in my defense I was pretty sleepy and there were times when I actually didn't follow what was going on (e.g. after the first tent scene when Ennis finds the slaughtered sheep I was like 'wait, did Jack kill it? wtf is going on?'). I also remember I didn't plug my laptop in and the battery died right at the apple pie in diner scene. So I rebooted it, rebuffered the movie and carried on. Then I watched Ennis get out of that post office and BANG! It struck me, right there and then. It's really difficult to describe what happened to me then, so I won't try. Somehow, despite the buzzing sound that started going off in my ears and all that, I got through to the end of the film and then when the credits finished, I just sat there staring at the blank screen, god knows how long for. And I've not been the same since.