I'm getting chills just watching it...

[YaadPyar]

My DVD came today, and I finally put it in just to make sure the scenes weren't too dark like some folks have experienced, and it gave me chills just to see it here - in my possession, without wondering what the audience will be like or missing something 'cause of laughing...  The video quality is excellent, and while I miss the big screen, I love the intimacy of seeing it so close up.

I feel like some very very very dear friends have moved in, and now we can be together all the time.  And I'm so surprised that it still touches me and moves me the same way.  I dont want to talk about the details of each scene - what I noticed or didn't. I just want to stay connected with what this movie touches inside of me and let the waves of it roll in and out and over me in their own way and time.

I feel that deep gratitude all over again the way I did when I first saw it.  My regret continues to be that I can't reach into the movie and comfort our boys - get them talking and understanding each other and finding a way to be together.   I still don't know what it is about BBM that gets me so good, but good I am gotten.  I can't help but say all the lines along with the movie...

Anyone else experiencing this?  Or are you still seeing it at the movie theater?  Or have you watched the DVD so many times that you're immune?  Do you ever get immune?

[Lynne]

I'm definitely feeling very happy to have Jack and Ennis in residence.  It closed near me a couple of weeks ago so I've been in a drought without them.  I think I like the intimacy at home better than the theatre.  It was always too dark in the theatre to really see some of the subtleties.  And, I'm also glad not to have the distraction of other people...there always seemed to be inappropriate laughter and 'yammering' when I saw it before.  And I went 19 times, so it's not like I didn't have a sample of audiences.

After I watched it last night, I came online for awhile, but I was really too choked to up to post sensibly (translate - crying).  Little Wrangler's and Kea's fan fiction helped to do me in.  Like you, I'm hoping this connection stays.  I really hope I don't become immune to it, but I think it is a realistic fear...I'm afraid other life concerns will move center stage, and these feelings will fall by the wayside.  I'm hoping this forum will help prevent that.

-Lynne

[YaadPyar]

I'm gonna try not to wear it out..I already know every scene, every line, so don't know how that's gonna happen.  I'll keep ya posted!

[juneaux]

I know what you mean...  I've received the "not again?!?" a few times already.  It is peaceful to watch the DVD from the comfort of my own bed. 

[horo04]

You know I watched it a second time on DVD and I didn't get the same effect like in the theatre.  Wasn't all heartbroken about it this time.  Guess I knew what was coming...but never the less it's still an awesome show and hopefully they will put out another and improved version in the near future.

[bbm_stitchbuffyfan]

"another and improved version" 

I hope you don't mean sequel.

Anyway, I got the DVD too but I actually haven't watched it yet. I've been waiting for the right time, when I can have some peace and quiet at nighttime, and I refuse to watch it on all but one of my TV's for the others are way too small.

I don't want to become immune to Brokeback either, so that's why I don't watch it every day or every other day. Usually, I'll go two, at most three, weeks in between viewings which helps freshen the movie. Granted, in between viewings, I spend a lot of time on Brokeback forums, playing the CD, and reliving the movie in my head.

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[horo04]

"another and improved version" 

I hope you don't mean sequel.

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A sequal?? No way! That would be a big mistake...actually what I meant was I hope they put out a better version of this dvd in the future...I put some posts up about what I thought about the release in another section. http://bettermost.net/forum/index.php?topic=542.msg6687#msg6687

[starboardlight]

when I first got the dvd, I watched it all the way through. didn't allow myself to pause or check for things on the subtitles. It still made me excited to see the reunion. My heart was beating just as hard and I lost my breath when Ennis threw Jack against the walk. It was good to feel those things still.

Like many of you, I too am afraid those emotions would be less as time passes.

[silkncense]

I feel comforted that I can go back and relive the experience whenever I want now. 

Before I got the DVD, I was always watching the newspaper to make sure it hadn't left the area yet - and each weekend would go daily fearing it would be gone the next.  Now I am calm - and I hope the feeling stays always.  Maybe not like the first viewing (where I was sleepless for 3 days) but always deep in my heart.

[bbm_stitchbuffyfan]

I agree, in that respect, it is comforting to have the DVD. I am just particular about how and when I will watch it (alone, in the dark so I can properly see the screen, screen has to be at least moderately-sized).

And, horo, as for a special edition of the DVD, I'm right there with you! (But I'm trying not to get myself too excited for fear of disappointment.)


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