You do say a lot Br. Patrick!
And not much... too! Like life... is!
I still think that it is normal to be aware of one's own life, and that of others too!
To be protective of one's physical's life, to me, is normal, and likely is so for you too, right... As one does not walk into a gang that could murder you easily, that is one way to be careful! I do not hang with criminals nor seek them!
That reminds me of a real story, one I was in and witnessed. I was in a park one day, and saw an old man was sitting on the grass, like I was, and everyone there was peaceful! But later on, came that afternoon, a gang, and they started to beat up the old fellow because he was old and that was fun for them. I could not jump right away alone in there and get beaten! Someone else saw that and we both came to his rescue. But why most did not... scares me! Even to-day! That does not bother you, are you saying...
What is worst to-day, is that gangs are more common and drugs wars are increasing, unfortunately. Maybe you are not aware that old as well as young persons are getting murdered for nothing, either for drugs habits of a drug taker or seller, or a gang for fun. Many gangs are now murdering innocent people for fun, more and more... in Canada, the USA and surely elsewhere! Even some gangs are in the USA killing for fun more and more and getting away with that since not enough police, nor not enough ordinary citizens, ignorants or ignorant that fear, are demanding peace!
I do not need drugs to be at peace; I am a peaceful person and need protection when needed, but that is becoming rare. Have 4 beat you up because you are gay and left you dead in the afternoon... or you been called by 16 policemen who harassed you, your mother and staff, because the new so-called neighbours create lies to the police force and many other civic officials; what would you do...
And the lists go on...
How would you cope... Br. Patrick!
Be nice to know your intent and actions...
au revoir,
hugs!