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oilgun:
--- Quote from: jstephens9 on January 28, 2008, 01:55:35 pm ---I definitely do think us Heathens share a special bond and we always have. Unfortunately I did not find the Heath thread until pretty late so I never got here until fairly recently. At that time I would have never thought anything would ever happen to Heath. It just never even crossed my mind. I was always busy trying to explain to people why Heath was my favorite and in some ways I always felt we were somewhat in the minority as opposed to the Jake group. Please don't get me wrong about that since I do think Jake is great as well as his portrayal of Jack. Nobody could have played the part of Jack better. It was just that my favorite was always Heath and Ennis was my favorite in the movie. That was just the way it was from the beginning of the first time I saw the movie. I was not familiar with either actor before Brokeback. I read a whole lot about Heath and his life after seeing the movie and I felt I had an understanding of him. I liked the idea that he was a private, down to earth person who was not into the Hollywood glitz. I just found him to be a very special guy and when I read all the things he did to put himself into the character of Ennis as well as other characters he has played I even admired him more. It's a very hard loss. I have never had an actor who passed away that I felt this strongly about. It's hard. I find myself to be rather irritable with people, with work and with things in general. I feel a feeling of just being down below the surface of something with very sad thoughts. I have pretty much quit posting on any of the threads except the Heath ones. I know some of the other threads that I used to post on have moved on and probably are talking about more lighthearted things, but I am not ready for that. I don't have anyone in RL who really understands either. The only one I have mentioned it to at all that has some understanding is my mother who has seen the movie. But of course she didn't know Heath like I did or Ennis or the movie. A guy who I have known for some time called earlier and mentioned it, but it seemed to be more of an afterthought on his part. I felt he was just up to the usual thing of wanting me to misbehave when he pretty much should know that I will not. That's a whole other story that has nothing to do with this. However, the whole phone call made me mad too.
Jack
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What a wonderful post, Jack, I can certainly relate. I think it's a testament to Heath's talent that he's been able to touch us to the degree that he has. He's left a void in many of us that will be hard, if even possible, to fill. I went through a very intense anger phase that has thankfully evolved into what I call healthy sadness. Acceptance, will come when it comes i suppose. Take care and you are certainly among friends here.
Gil
MaineWriter:
You know, I remember back in the "old days" when were all suffering from Brokeback Fever, we all wondered, "Why are we like this? We'll we ever get over this?" and I remember the intense feelings of grief and depression. Forgive me if this seems harsh, but I look back and think that seemed like a garden party to the way I am feeling now.
Sigh....
L
Nikita111:
--- Quote from: MaineWriter on January 28, 2008, 02:20:07 pm ---You know, I remember back in the "old days" when were all suffering from Brokeback Fever, we all wondered, "Why are we like this? We'll we ever get over this?" and I remember the intense feelings of grief and depression. Forgive me if this seems harsh, but I look back and think that seemed like a garden party to the way I am feeling now.
Sigh....
L
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I am with you. i just got back from home and started to cry again.
Mikaela:
--- Quote from: MaineWriter on January 28, 2008, 02:20:07 pm ---You know, I remember back in the "old days" when were all suffering from Brokeback Fever, we all wondered, "Why are we like this? We'll we ever get over this?" and I remember the intense feelings of grief and depression. Forgive me if this seems harsh, but I look back and think that seemed like a garden party to the way I am feeling now.
Sigh....
L
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(((Leslie)))
I bet the emotions and depression were more intense back then than we seem to remember now - time does mellow emotions and blurs the memory of pain. A good thing, or how would we be able to move forward?
But also, however much we grieved, however heartshot we were, a sliver of our minds and a piece of our souls must consciously or subconsciously have held on to the comforting thought that "this is fiction. Noone died in RL". No such comfort can be found now.... I think that makes it much more difficult, harsh, unrelentinig, - certainly I feel that way....
Penthesilea:
--- Quote from: Mikaela on January 28, 2008, 03:09:16 pm ---(((Leslie)))
I bet the emotions and depression were more intense back then than we seem to remember now - time does mellow emotions and blurs the memory of pain. A good thing, or how would we be able to move forward?
But also, however much we grieved, however heartshot we were, a sliver of our minds and a piece of our souls must consciously or subconsciously have held on to the comforting thought that "this is fiction. Noone died in RL". No such comfort can be found now.... I think that makes it much more difficult, harsh, unrelentinig, - certainly I feel that way....
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Now it's on me to agree with every single word you wrote.
You know what I did in the early days? Whenever I had seen BBM, I cried a while, then started the DVD again, warched only the first ten minutes - and there was Jack again. Young and beautiful, full of hopes and so wonderfully alive.
Can't do that now. :'(
Yes, it's worse this time.
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