Happy Monday, BetterMost!
It's good to see you all today!
I'm in recovery mode today, after the events of the weekend.
It was good to be together with the Brokies this weekend, and my cousin's wedding last night was fun as all hell!
I'll post a few pics from it later!
Today's music vid is not my usual taste, but I like it! It's a new song that is starting to get some airplay here on NYC radio.
Paralyzer by Finger Eleven.
[youtube=425,350]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BYGCT4AQIR0[/youtube]
My poem is one I wrote about a year and a half ago.....my mindset has changed since then, and some of the things I mention are not part of my thought pattern anymore, but since I wrote it, and it was what I was thinking at the time, I'm posting it.
Wasting Time
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Sitting alone by the computer
as the clock ticks by the minutes
I am being kept company
by the refridgerator
as it's moter drones on and on
and I wonder
how much of my life I've wasted
trying to be what others wanted
and not doing what I needed to
to make myself happy
thinking back to childhood memories
of playing house and being a dad
with my friend across the street
imagining what it would be like
to be an adult
Never realizing that
I'd reach 37
and still feel like I don't know
what it should feel like
to be an adult
Sitting here thinking
that I've made so many strides forward
in the past 8 years
but even though I was moving forward
wondering if I haven't moved fast enough
and that I have lost the chance
to find love
and to be a father
The clock ticks, and I realize it's past 1
and I'm sitting here
wondering if writing things down
will help me move on the path faster
or if I'm still wasting time