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Beans and Crazies by montana crows
mariez:
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Those are excellent thoughts, nic! Yep, Ennis and guilt go hand-in-hand, so it's never surprised me that Ennis would feel he "deserved" whatever kind of hardships that would come his way, accepting those as his "punishment." It's the self-inflicted part that I struggle with, along with bringing Jack into the picture. I think, also, Ennis struggles with the idea (evidenced by the awful dream he had) that because he is living openly with Jack he has put both of them in the very danger he has always feared - adding another layer of guilt.
Both your explanations make a lot of sense - I would probably lean toward the second. In this story, Ennis isn't "nothing and nowhere," so I don't think he's feeling that level of resentment toward Jack - although he is still obviously not as comfortable with being gay as Jack is. (But as we saw when Jack's dad died, Jack his own issues.) I also think that he hasn't been aware (until recently when Jack told him expliciitly) of just how hard it was for Jack to do as he asked - so I agree that he is not consciously trying to hurt Jack at all.
Perhaps the author is trying to make us aware that, just because Ennis didn't leave Jack when they came down from the mountain, he still has the same fears, guilts, insecurities, and paranoias as the Ennis that did leave Jack does, and these have to be addressed in some way. Just a guess. And, yes, I've always been amused by the use of the word "utopian." :)
Thanks,
Marie
mariez:
Montana_Crows is back home in the U.S.! Yay! :D And we have and update!
http://community.livejournal.com/brokebackslash/1621155.html?#cutid1
SPOILERS
The last lines of the chapter:
"Who in the hell taught you everything's your fault?"
He couldn't answer, couldn't say if it was K.E.'s heavy hand or the way Cheryl had always looked at him when things went wrong, couldn't put into words the feeling of endless blame that didn't seem to have any particular origin. He just stood there, wet his lip with his tongue and looked at the floor.
"Jesus Christ," Jack said quietly, then those long arms were around him, Jack's nose in his hair. "Swear to God, if you could cause half the trouble you think you do, you'd be the devil himself, Ennis."
God, that's beautiful. And it really gets to the heart of Ennis and our sweet Jack.
Marie
Brown Eyes:
Hey Marie!!
I had just copied those last several lines to post here too! (I read the update before reading your post). The end of this chapter was great and really speaks to some deep issues for Ennis I think.
So, this was definitely one of those good chapters that makes this story really worthwhile.
:)
SFEnnisSF:
Jes' want to check in and let ya'all know I'm still readin' this. I'm up to where Jack just got his cast off. (Yes, I'm a slow reader.)
Brown Eyes:
--- Quote from: sfericsf on November 08, 2007, 12:43:25 am ---Jes' want to check in and let ya'all know I'm still readin' this. I'm up to where Jack just got his cast off. (Yes, I'm a slow reader.)
--- End quote ---
:)
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