Thanks underdown, thanks dellavia, thanks AussiChris, thanks Jeff Wrangler, thanks brokeplex, and thanks to all others too!!
Firstly, may I search to continue to reply to underdown. After a long night of dreams plus one dream which was the last in which there was strained as well as new searching, I just re-read your comment. I understand it better now, I think and appreciate it. I would also like your replies to my questions, please when you can. You say: I don't know any gay men with 19 year-old daughters. It must be difficult for them to know how they think towards their Dad, although sisters are something of an insight.
I have two daughters who were 19 not so long ago, (twins) one of whom accepts me totally as I am; a straight male who loves and likes and feels, sometimes loves the wrong people, and makes mistakes. The other is critical because I am single again, thinks I embarrass her, and therefore must prefer people outside of her family.
Do you think, Artiste, it could sometimes be just as hard being a straight male?
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Underdown, you do say that you do not know of any gay man with 19 years-old daughters. Since you do have two 19 years-olds, they do reactdiffently to you, even if you are straight (not bi nor gay or otherwise). You figure that one acts better towards you (now single), but that the other is negative ( critical). May I ask if these two were always like this? Or is it because you are now single?
If I understand you, then an 19 years-daughter can think!! And even accept certain situation(s) such as divorse (in your case I do not know if it is separation or divorse or something else, but may I use the word divorse?). But, even if they are twins, the other is critical about you being now single, is that her main reason?
So do you figure that Alma Jr should be critical of her father or accepts her father for being an hetero-in-his-own way, an bi, or a gay man??
Like others on Bettermost, you may ask me any questions, any time. I will try to reply, and if I don't, please do not be shy to re-ask, as often as you like... in order for me to create replies which will determine possible an anwser with details. At times, it take months or years to get an answer, to find it!! That's life, since it's a search for bettermost... among details, facts, one life's and/or other lives!!
To answer you to your last question, I have to live in fear everyday as a gay man; I do not know if you understand that? Tell me please.
You being straight, must have better chances at life, not being in fear for one's life because you are straight, yes or no, or???
Of course, straight men have hard times, and maybe that is one reason why straights and gay men could, should or must try to help each other?? As in Bettermost, may I suggest.
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I will re-read your answers all of you and reply, as soon as possible. Be assured that I am grateful for them, as I glanced and am happy concerning these. It makes me think and enjoy life better. I must now go to work... create paintings.
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Ineedcrayons, please be assured too that I am happy with you and your thoughts and help. I do not understand all the moderators who take away a word, words, sentences, text or even a subject of mine, but at times, I re-read why or my writings and do understand, but at other times I do not know why; anyhow, I guess that it is like a court case?? To me, to others and surely to you too (from what and how you act and react to me), we all like freedom of expression!! At least, let us all become better humans trying to help each other and one self!! We do succed at times, in many wondrous ways, here on Bettermost! Again, thanks ineedcrayons! And hugs!
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Hugs to all!!
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