there is an emptiness inside me since I heard the news and HBO showed Brokeback early this AM -and I realized you never know what life has in store for you, how ironic to see Ennis mourn his lost love, never knowing the thousands who would shortly quietly say, Heath....I swear....
You got me in tears again. I am so unhappy. I cannot forget him. it just brings me horrible pain.
Today I slept for few hours in the afternoon and i WOKE UP OFF SOME NIGHTMARE, MY HEART WAS PUMPING LIKE CRAZY. I HAVE SO MUCH PAIN INSIDE AND IT IS TRYING TO GET OUT BUT iT IS TOO MUCH. pOOR BABY, i MA SO DEVASTATED.