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Anyone want another sweet 'cry'?
Lynne:
--- Quote from: BBMGrandma on April 16, 2006, 01:49:00 am ---It's as though our 'boys' are giving me permission to cry...and mourn.
...I ALWAYS speak of them as though they were neighbors next door....or whatever. As if THEY are alive and part of my life.
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Nancy - it's just terrific to see you peeking in and posting again! You take your time, no pressure, and get back to us when you can. But I have definitely missed you. It seems when tragedies come, they come in multiple numbers, or cycles, or something. I'm sorry to hear about your nephew's illness. I have a close cousin with Crohn's so I have some idea what he's going through. Keep us posted on that too. As always, you and yours are in my thoughts.
I think it is beyond cool that you shared Kea's poetry at Everett's memorial service. From what you've said about Everett, the poem sounded like a perfect for a tribute to a man who was well-loved.
On another note, picturing that life-size cardboard cutout behind your bed is terrific and hilarious - you rule! I've got this whole scene in my head of you haranguing the manager until he relented. :D) Maybe we can get Kea to try her hand at some comic relief there!
To get back to the topic - I cried my eyes out tonight. I talked with my ex-husband (good friend), learning that his father had passed away over the holidays. The tears just came pouring out. I firmly believe that the wounds that BBM opened - revealing the Jack/Ennis within all of us - scarred over and numb from denying our true selves for years and years - is why the tears came so easily and freely. I loved this man very much - he was like a father to me for eight+ years. But as far as tears are concerned, I am usually an Ennis...stuff them down to be dealt with at some other time, which of course never comes, so the unprocessed feelings just accumulate. It seems a luxury to allow yourself the time and space to deal with feelings as they come. My emotions are just very close to the surface now and I'd like them to stay there. It's painful and miserable, but at the same time, it reminds you that you're alive, life is precious; you are not just some automaton going through the motions.[/color]
I've been a slacker myself - not spending much time here for several reasons that I'll try to discuss in my blog, but when everyone is together again, we (Team BBM Chicks) need to talk about things like maintaining/restoring momentum, ways to keep our path in a prominent place in our lives, and especially Now What? --- where do we want to go from here both individually and as a group?
Much love and peace to all.
Lynne
Phillip Dampier:
It is amazing that sights and sounds of the Mountain States have a whole new meaning after Brokeback Mountain. I have come to appreciate country & western music for the first time just because of the movie. Wide open rural country roads speak to me of Jack and Ennis, and a mountain will always remind me of Brokeback.
A year after seeing the film, none of these emotional reactions I am having to things I wouldn't have thought about before have subsided one bit. More proof of just how life-changing this film was for me.
Karan13:
It`s lovely that you still feel this way Phillip,
I found at first i kept watching the movie , then i `Left It Alone ` for a whille , i thought that it would maybe , just become `A Great Film` that i`d get out once a year and enjoy , but no , it `Got` to me and i look t things in my life that echo , Jack and Ennis , the Beauty of the setting of the movie , only adds to my joy , living in such a closed in , built up area , i can`t stroll by a stream or walk in a countryside to escape , i find my release in the movie , and whenever i watch it , i still feel the same , i just love it as i did , and i think i always will. xx kaz
iristarr:
Dear Phillip -- how wonderful to hear your "voice" once again, and to re-read some of those early posts from BBMgrandma and Lynn . . . those old early days when I was so high on Brokeback. You been touring the country, it sounds like and I do know the feeling that comes over me whenever any little thing evokes memories from the film: a campfire, a sunrise, a rushing stream, a cowboy drinking a cup of coffee with his gloves on, from an old tin cup on a frosty morning. My big BBM wall-collage, where I pinned up all my pics of the boys and e-mails and the post-Oscar newspaper ads and the Annie Proux text .. all of that is getting dusty and maybe after the New Year I'll have to take it all down, but not yet, not yet, I can still get the feelings back, just writing this now: how the whole event, the film, the boards, the months I spent with the wonderful folk here at Bettermost .. my life will never be the same. All my best wishes and appreciation to you for starting and continuing this wonderful haven. Iris
Lynne:
--- Quote from: iristarr on November 28, 2006, 03:20:21 am ---Dear Phillip -- how wonderful to hear your "voice" once again, and to re-read some of those early posts from BBMgrandma and Lynn . . . those old early days when I was so high on Brokeback. You been touring the country, it sounds like and I do know the feeling that comes over me whenever any little thing evokes memories from the film: a campfire, a sunrise, a rushing stream, a cowboy drinking a cup of coffee with his gloves on, from an old tin cup on a frosty morning. My big BBM wall-collage, where I pinned up all my pics of the boys and e-mails and the post-Oscar newspaper ads and the Annie Proux text .. all of that is getting dusty and maybe after the New Year I'll have to take it all down, but not yet, not yet, I can still get the feelings back, just writing this now: how the whole event, the film, the boards, the months I spent with the wonderful folk here at Bettermost .. my life will never be the same. All my best wishes and appreciation to you for starting and continuing this wonderful haven. Iris
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Friend! Iristarr! This visit is long overdue! How've you been? You don't need to take your shrine down, sweetie...just get out one of those feather dusters and dust it off every few weeks! I've really missed you. I'm glad to see you here again. You need to catch us up with what you've been doing.
I'm not over it...My chest still tightens whenever I hear the familiar strains of any Gustavo song. I don't watch the movie as often as I did...pull it out for when I have special quiet time or want to see something special. I am having bipolar-style swings between thinking I'm on on the right path toward 'finishing the story' and getting smacked in a new direction. I don't guess Annie said the path would be straight or narrow or boring :).
We miss you! Please swing our way more often!
Love,
Lynne
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