Our BetterMost Community > Chez Tremblay

BBM is 3 Years Old This Month. How Are You Doing, Friends?

<< < (2/12) > >>

Monika:
I haven't been around for three years, since I only first saw the movie a year ago on the day after Heath died.
But what a year it has been and this year will absolutely go down in history as the Brokeback year for me. Who knew in December last year that a year later I would have driven around in Wyoming visiting deserted farms and cemeteries or driven around in Alberta visiting places where they shot some movie?

When I saw the movie in January it "happened" to me. I remember lying on my bed in my dark room and watching it on my laptop. Afterwards I curled up into a fetus position and cried like a baby. And after Brokeback I went into sort of depressive state that lasted for about a month. During that time I often cried and overall felt down but at the same time it was a good feeling, like the movie had tapped into feelings I really hadn't put words to in the past. It was quite an experience.

Exactly what it is in Brokeback that I respond to, I'm not quite sure of. I think that that's one of the reasons that I keep coming back to it. I need to figure it out. I think it might have to do something to do with fear of ending up alone (like Ennis does) or that I won't be able to hang on to my own personal "Brokeback Mountain". But I don't know for sure yet and that intrigues me. The answer is like an ever moving horizon that I never seem to reach.

My first meeting with other Brokies was in Wyoming in June. There I was, suddenly with people who were longtime fans and seemed to know everything about the movie. I felt like such a newbie, let me tell you. I remember lying on a bed in Rodney's house on my first night in Denver and giggling hysterically at myself - at my own craziness (I had after all travelled half way around the world because of a movie after all) but it was a good kind of craziness and I felt...happy. It's one of those moments I will never forget.

Then visiting Alberta with a friend of mine. That trip was one of a kind and for the first time ever I rented a car while being abroad! Chrystler - Yeah baby!

And then the Brokie gathering in Sweden in October...again i met people I would never otherwise have met and that I felt very close to after only a few hours.

So what this year has given me is a number of perfect moments that I'll never forget.

If I'm different than I was a year ago? I think I've done some growing up, I've learned to look beyond people's sexual orientation and have also learned that my own might not be so "set in stone" as I thought it was - and that that is okay too.

This have been a very good year for me, and I thank BBM for that

Kelda:
Buffy - I thught you;d been around for much much longer than that - its amazing how people just fit into this little clan like a glove and we feel like we've all been together for years.

Monika:

--- Quote from: Kelda on December 14, 2008, 05:01:42 pm ---Buffy - I thught you;d been around for much much longer than that - its amazing how people just fit into this little clan like a glove and we feel like we've all been together for years.

--- End quote ---
Kelda, I feel that way too. :)


I checked my profile and apparently I registered here February 21. Must have been around the time I came out of my BBM induced coma :D

CellarDweller:
and we're glad you did come out of the coma, and register!  ;D

Artiste:
Searching as in this Brokeback Mountain movie!

Navigation

[0] Message Index

[#] Next page

[*] Previous page