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JT:
Howdy folks,
I'm a 34 y/o GAM in Henderson, NV. I'm very new here and just joined yesterday. Infact, this is my second post. I'm glad I found this site and it's great to see so many people who share similar feelings regarding this great movie as I did. I consider myself some where between a "Jack" and an "Ennis". Don't like to talk much, but playful sometimes. Still closeted to most, but not afraid to stand up against people who are anti-gay or anti-Brokeback.
I first heard about Brokeback Mountain in fall of 2005 and was curious on what it was all about. Then I heard that it was about gay cowboys and I'm shock but glad. Being who I am and my love for the cowboy figure, I thought this kind of movies were not possible. Then I heard Ang Lee was directing it and Heath Ledger and Jake Gyllenhaal will be the leads and I was like "WOW!" I didn't know Heath that well, but thought Jake was so cute. Seen him in "The Day After Tomorrow". But the fear in me prevented me from watching it in the theater. That was my biggest regret about this movie. If this movie will ever show again in a theater in my city, I'll go see it without a thought.
So when the movie came out on dvd, I went and got it. I watched it when I got home from work and was completely devastated. How can this movie be possible? And how can I miss out on this movie in the theater? I'm still angry and bitter with myself even now. The next day I cried even worst and was totally shaking, and I don't cry easily. I guess the second time around, I understand it even more and it hit me even deeper. I contineud to watch this movie every day when I came home from work until mid June. So I watched it over 50 times. It brought devastation, but it also brought a sence of peace in me that I can not explain, something no other movie has done before. I also went out and bought the sound track, and it brought me a lot of peace and joy. I feel like I'm a late boomer because this movie is still having a strong grab on me. Anyone else still hooked by this movie and can not get away?
So what did I learn from this movie? Plenty. I can not please my parents now by marrying a women. Not only will I ruin my own life, but another human being's as well. I also learn that life is short, so I will try to enjoy life more and live it to the fullest. If I ever find my "Jack" one day, I will not deny his existance. He will be part of me, not my secret "fishing toy". There! Finally got it off my chest. Feel better already.
tamarack:
Hi, JT - Welcome to BetterMost!
Is anyone else still hooked, you ask? What do you think we're all doing here?! :D I don't think that many of us (or ANY of us) don't want to be hooked, either.
What really helped me when I was feeling really depressed (seems like the depression built each time I saw it, for the first 4 or 5 times) was that I started reading some of the really great fan fiction that is out there. The ones I started with were ones that had Jack and Ennis together (in other words, an alternate universe where Jack wasn't dead) and it helped me to sleep better (it helped me to sleep, period!). Be careful, though, because they can be very addicting! This forum has some links to some really good stories on it, and after you start to feel better and can maybe accept that Ennis might have moved on after Jack's death, you can come on over to Ennis and Ellery (at Chez Tremblay) and start The Laramie Saga.
You're going to think I'm an idiot but I have to ask. If G is "gay" and M is "man", what's the A for? ???
JT:
Hello Tamarack,
Thank you! The "A" is for Asian. Just like the "W" in GWM stands for White. Idiot? Absolutely not.
Well I'm glad we're all still hooked. I don't seem to want to let go anytime soon. Yeah, I read a lot about the AU where Jack is alive. It made me felt great. I think it's in the "Wrangler". For some reason, this movie, as sad as it was, didn't make me depress at all. It made me think and realize life is not as bad after all and I should be happy for what I have now. I hear you when you say "addicting". I was glued to the computer for hours reading some of those stories, sometime skipping meals. Crazy! No matter how good I feel, I don't think I can ever accept Ennis replacing Jack with anyone else. To me, Brokeback Mountain was their story and their's alone. But in reality, life does go on.
Samrim:
Hello Daphne, It'll maybe take a day or two, but I'll get the link to you!
Writing this I THINK I've been told that you have been directed by someone else!. If you need me contact me again.
Any way I'm happy to talk about anything to do with old Brokeback! :laugh:
Best Wishes
Sam :)
David In Indy:
--- Quote from: Daphne7661 on July 10, 2006, 04:46:40 pm ---Hey Everyone,
I joined BetterMost probably a month or so ago.
I am a totally addicted BBM / Jack & Ennis fan, and knew I needed an outlet to express so much of what I have been feeling since first experiencing this film back in May '06...
My job keeps me busy, so my posts may be few and far between, but I am thankful for this forum, and have many friends here from IMDb.
--- End quote ---
Are you the same Daphne I have been chatting with every once in awhile over on IMDb? If you are, you are a sweetheart! I am David-Indiana over there, by the way.
Anyhow, welcome Daphne to Bettermost!
And welcome to everyone else too! :)
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