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ekeby:
--- Quote from: RebelWithSadness on October 07, 2006, 03:21:53 pm ---My name is Phoenix, I am 16 years old, and i'm a gay teenager, secretly/madly inlove with a best friend.
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Hi Phoenix . . .
I get the impression, though you didn't say so, that your best friend is straight and unavailable? If so, please make an effort to get as much positive energy in your life as possible. We can't choose who we fall in love with, but we can try to ease the heartache and direct our attention elsewhere . . . I hope you are able to meet and be with, physically, other young gay people. A bird in hand, etc.?
It's sad-making to think you might find yourself like some of us here, looking back forty years with regret for the Jack/Ennis situations we were in. . . .
Best wishes . . . Paul/EKEBY
RebelWithASmile:
--- Quote from: ekeby on October 07, 2006, 05:08:27 pm ---Hi Phoenix . . .
I get the impression, though you didn't say so, that your best friend is straight and unavailable? If so, please make an effort to get as much positive energy in your life as possible. We can't choose who we fall in love with, but we can try to ease the heartache and direct our attention elsewhere . . . I hope you are able to meet and be with, physically, other young gay people. A bird in hand, etc.?
It's sad-making to think you might find yourself like some of us here, looking back forty years with regret for the Jack/Ennis situations we were in. . . .
Best wishes . . . Paul/EKEBY
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thanks. I needed some encouragement
Samrim:
Hello phoenix (and Paul)
Many years ago I fell in love with a straight guy, who was kind, more intelligent than me ( I love brainy men); he was 22 years old, very attractive in a Heathcliffe way, he played rugby, here in England, and was all I felt I needed in life. He made it clear, no! he TOLD me that rather than be touched by a queer, he'd take a gun and shoot himself.
It took me ten years and more to get over that putdown, the pain and shame was terrible. I still love him though, for afterward he was as kind as he could be, until he moved away and out of my life. Even now though, thirty years later I hope I'll meet Robert again someday and that I'll see that smile of his. At the time, all that I could give him that he wanted, was MY absence!
If, in your heart you know your friend is straight, do you really want to wallow in all that grief, do you want to give him pain, him who you love, or would it be fairer, and easier,for both of you to 'move on'. You are a nice young guy I guess, and there are lots of other young guys out there looking for someone like you. Didn't you aught to give them a chance?
My very best Wishes phoenix, and Good Luck
Oh, and I absolutely love Brokeback Mountain too, I adore Ennis and Jack, and think about them every day, even though it's nine months since the film came out here in the UK.
Sam
RebelWithASmile:
Thanks Samrim. My friend, lets call him Bill, because that's his name. ;)
Well, Bill is very excepting, and not completely homophobic. I mean, if he is called gay he will do the traditional 'white man's burden, gotta kick some arse' gig. But i think he might be gay, secretly. He is much too sensitive for this world. He is very quiet, and loner-like, a outsider. I like that, and most of the time i'm like that too. I would hate to stereotype him, but he is much more compassionate than the regular straight guy. He is very loving in a friend-way. I feel like i could tell him anything BUT that i'm gay and i love him, and i want to hold him. I hate being depraved of him, it hurts everyday. I'm so glaad (haha, get it?) that he is excepting, and empathetic, and quiet, and i'm glad most of all, because he likes me. Likes me more than most.
And i hate it when he pains. Some friends of ours were doing the 'oh yer so gay' crap, calling Bill a '<0<ksu<ker' I tried to support him, but my limited plea fell on deaf ears. Bill was literally being attacked at all sides, and i just felt bad....
sorry for rambling, as i usually do when i talk about Bill.
Wayne:
Welcome Frank H, Dahpna, RebelWithSadness, and TheWings!!! And all the rest of youse! Glad you're here. May you be happy and healthy!! :)
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