This was the 1st letter I ever wrote to my beloved Rich (loneleeb3)
September 11th , 2008
Rich, There is something I want to tell you but, have not been able to find the words in my head to make it sound right. So I thought I would sit down and just right about what I am feeling in my heart rather then in my head. See I had reached a point in my life where I felt falling in Love was a thing of the past for me. There were nice people, it’s true but no more magic, no more being swept off my feet. Then right about the time I was ready to close that chapter of my life you walked in, and every thing changed. Suddenly, I find myself smiling almost all the time. The more I learn about you, the more
astounded I feel at just how perfect you seem for me. There is no escaping the fact that what is happening between us is meant to be. I can’t deny that every time you hold me in your arms I begin to think that maybe life has saved the very best for last. I am not trying to tell you that I am madly in love with you because, I know that takes time. However what I am trying to tell you is that I am falling in love with you a little bit more each day, and for the first time in a long time I am looking forward to tomorrow and the days to follow.
Gene
Gene:
I know you don't even know me. I was unable to go to the service you had for our
beloved Rich. I am so glad to see you here however. I talked to him from the first
moment he came here. He was so undecided and did not know what to do at all.
He was so unhappy and fearful. But day by day he made his choices. He met more'
and more people here on line. He was so easy to know, and so warm and receptive.
I am sure I am telling you what you know more than any of us, but I was just telling you the kind of person we saw too.
Then little at a time he made those moves and grew to accept himself as what he
really was, then he met you. He blossomed like the beautiful flower that he was. Love is like that when you feel it. It not only makes you feel better, but the ones you
love, and all those around you. You gave him exactly what he needed from the first
day he came here. I know that you had a very short time together, but I know it
was universally given and you both gained so very much for it. I know you don't know me although I wish I had gotten the chance to meet you, but it was not to be. I will say Rich called me mama, and I called him son, you can too if you like. If not you can just say Janice.
If you ever need anyone to talk to, or lay a burden on, I am here for you. I
would love to have you to talk to as I did him..
Mama janice