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I miss you on weekends
RebelWithASmile:
PLEASE listen to this song. I'm going to make a BBM music video with it (sometime down the road) It's amazingly sad.
Sarah McLachlan - I Love You (LIVE)
3/9/07
Me and WILLIAM( :D ) auditioned today for a play! My monologue was from Rebel Without a Cause. The 'You're Tearing me apart' scene ;)
Then me and Bill had to read lines together (from the play). I embarrassed myself by reading the script horribly. Yeesh...
He called his mom at work to see if he could spend the night.....Jackie answered the phone and REFUSED to let him talk to his own fucking mother............
So he asked Jackie if he could spend the night and of course she/it said no. I say 'it' because she's a transvestite. I told Bill to ask his mom when he got a chance, since Jackie has no real say....
Me and mother took Bill home. he led us the way, but me and mother already knew the way, because yesterday, we did a little spying, by driving over to his house ::) Just to see.
We sent a letter to Bill's father (who's in jail) to see if he could help the situation when he gets out (March 21, i think).
Please, someone reply!
Lumière:
Hiya friend!
Good to hear from you.
I been meaning to drop by and comment on your last poem, Withstanding, but didn't get around to it.
Simply put, it is beautiful and haunting, like alot of the poetry you write.
Like I tell ya every time, keep it up! :)
Bill's home situation sounds complicated, what with his mother's girlfriend's attitude towards him!
Here's to hoping something gives, for his sake.
Also, let us know if you both get into the play! ;)
~M
Shakesthecoffecan:
Beautiful song, I love Sarah Mclachlan, and she is so beautiful too. I thinks she does that song "The Arms of an Angel". I wonder where that CD is.....
Good luck with the audition! I hope you and WILLIAM!!!!! get parts. I think you all are lucky to have one another, from your descriptions it sounds like you are the bright spots in one anothers lives.
Andrew:
Phoenix,
You are such an artist, I know making those videos and poems is going to keep you sane however things are blowing in your crazy life full of feelings.
I really like that poem and the last one you posted, I have memorized parts of them and have been thinking about melodic lines that would go naturally with the words. Some day you are going to write a hit song!
I also really like the video in your sig line, with the Coldplay song. You have put the images and the words together so well. You just know that film and where to go to find what you want in it.
I know you can turn the Sarah McLachlan song into something special if you want - something I would like better than that video of her singing it! She is trying to be interesting for the camera but the arm movements just don't look natural or sincere to me. You'll do much better with images from the film!
It's good to hear you're getting your mom as an ally. With Bill coming over to your house more and the situation with his family getting more obvious, it helps to know that you are not the only one outside his family who knows how hard it is for him. Situations like that really need to be watched. It's important for Bill to know that he can tell you anything, he doesn't have to cover up for Jackie. She may just seem like an embarrassment to him, and if that means she is not doing anything to his self-esteem by carrying on the way she does, that's good. But sometimes a person like that can turn into an abuser, and if it happens it just can't be allowed to go on, people can get hurt.
Keep us posted here and keep those great lyrics coming!
RebelWithASmile:
thanks Andrew
I have to say, i'm going to watch that gay soap opera on youtube that everyone is dying over.
First, last week was testing, so it was a bad week. Bill didn't get a part in the play, but i did. I got Dr. Purgon in 'The Imaginary Invalid'
I felt bad that he didn't get a part, but someone just dropped out, so he might still have a chance.
Mrs. Day, my Teen Issue's teacher, is Bill's neighbor, and i told her (confidentially) about Jackie, and etc. I think she has a right to know as their neighbor (just in case). Mrs. Day said Jackie is a great neighbor to have :o
3/18 Sunday
Bill spent the ENTIRE weekend at my house! I was so happy! My mom just picked us up after school was out. I had to witness Bill 'flirting' with a girl he likes a lot.
First thing that happens when we get to my house is me and my mom get into a fight >:(
My sister called and told us to babysit her son for the weekend because she 'made plans with her new boyfriend for St. Patrick's day.' I was very angry. Bill and I had planned on him spending the weekend at my house for about two weeks!
And Chance, my nephew, is a very big burden and i didn't want him to interrupt mine and Bill's time. I know that sounds selfish, but i was just so disheartened.
My mom was attacking me with personal attack after personal attack. We were arguing RIGHT IN FRONT OF BILL, and i got uncomfortable. Of course, mom played it off as my fault. She has been doing so since i came out to her. She even used Bill's family against me! I got really pissed, and really embarrassed. It ended when Bill said 'can you guys do this when I'm not here?'
My mom, later that night, came downstairs and acted all 'independent woman.' She called me a dumbass for no reason, and i just gave her a very serious look and said 'why are you doing this to me?' She answered by grimacing and bitching some more. She was a horrible mother this entire weekend.
Bill, yesterday at sometime, turned to me (we were sitting at the computer) and said 'I Love You-not like that" and then he gave me a hug and said i was 'his best friend.' Liar. He was just saying it because i was making him a CD, but he seemed serious. :D ??? :'( :-\
Last night...lets just say we had a discussion about something guys do when alone ::) if i could be so bold in saying so :laugh:
I asked him (today) if he was happy (in general). He said yes, then said why, and one of his answers was 'and I'm at the house of a good friend of mine, Phoenix"
We watched a couple horror movies.
Mom was pissed because Bill ate all of our chicken noodle soup, and that he spent TWO nights, instead of one. She embarrassed me, and she kept on asking stupid questions like 'why are you acting this way?' What she doesn't understand is that i'm in severe Limerence, and that she was embarrassing me in front of my crush. I confronted her about it today, and she got all bitchy, and we got into another fight. She said that she regretted moving to this town and that Bill is using me. Bill always says he's sorry and that he's very thankful for the stuff i do for him. I truly do not think he is taking advantage. Yeah, he has selfish problems, but I put those to a stop right away.
Thank god we couldn't get Keli on the phone, because she was going to come over to my house, and the three of us were going to walk to the cemetery. I'm glad she was avoiding the calls.
I really don't know if this was a good or bad weekend.
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