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I miss you on weekends
Br. Patrick:
--- Quote from: Lucise on April 26, 2007, 08:36:24 pm ---*Please*..
Don't take pills like that again.
My heart sank when I read about the pills and thought of suicide.. :(
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I totally agree with Milli. I can't even count the number of men I have fallen in (lust) love for over the past 30 years who couldn't (or wouldn't) return my feelings. I've also been at the point of suicide. God wouldn't let me and I'm sure glad he didn't because things are SO much better now. When you're at the bottom, My Dear Boy, the only way to go is UP! And you are so Lucky that he TOUCHES you! How I would long to be touched by those I was enamoured with...
prayers & peace :'(
br. patrick
Shakesthecoffecan:
I can relate to how you feel. I have been thru the same thing myself when I was you age, and older. Finally when I was 30 and still going down that path I saw a psychiatrist. Just hearing myself talk helped me immensely, and I worked thru it.
Bill would not hurt you if he knew what he was doing was the source of your pain. I know how much you care for him, but the truth is he mostlikely is straight. My doctor helped me realize that wanting something I could not have was a form avoidance, keeping me from ultimately committing to someone who cared for me.
I know it hurts, but Friend you know what would hurt worse? Ending it all too soon, and never getting to see the beauty and wonder of this life you have.
Bless You.
RebelWithASmile:
Thanks :(
i've been hanging in there.
On Wednesday (4/18), Bill stood up to Jackie and explained to her how she hurts him. I guess Jackie cried and that she has been softer on him ever since.
Part 2
Friday 20th (4/20!)
Our school was in lockdown, because someone found a hit list in a girl's restroom (the girl who did it is a friend of mine on myspace.) We were stuck in 3rd period for 2 hours while cops opened EVERY locker. I was to give Bill a ride to our house after school/play rehearsal, but his mom came and picked him up because of the school panic. Jeez.
Well, i was pissed off because he left and i was not told. I had a teacher call the office, and they confirmed his departure. I was depressed. Keli (a mutual friend) was suppose to hang out with us, and spend the weekend, but she didn't come to school! I was pissed.....
Well, i called Bill's mom and she told me to call her home. I do, Jackie picks up. She's nice, but Bill's busy. Me/my mom/My sister bitch about nothing till Bill arrives on Jackie's motorcycle with Jackie at the wheel! LOL. Awesome entrance.
Bill admits to me that he never gets tired of saying that I'm his best friend...
We were in the kitchen and he gave me a hug out of nowhere, and i gave him a hug back, but i hurt his sun burn and i felt so bad.
Later that night, me and Bill go off to meet Keli, and Jordan (another friend) in town.
We all get high (my first time!)
When its dark and we are walking around, Bill tells me to 'come here.' I go over to him and he puts his arm on my shoulder, and gives a fake kiss on my cheek. His lips didn't touch my face :laugh:
It was cool. We all just hung out, and then we all just crashed at my house for the night.
Saturday
Keli leaves. Me/Bill/Jordan hang out. We all get high AGAIN! Jordan leaves. Me and Bill hang out.
Jordan comes back, and spends the night, because he didn't have a ride home from work.
Bill talks to TARA'S COUSIN TILL 5 IN THE MORNING ON MY PHONE. I WAS Sitting here, pissed/jealous/sick. I kicked him off at 5. He asked if he disgusted me, and i said no. He said 'if you want to hit me, hit me' in a polite way, though. I was upset. I gave him a safe hug (trying not to hurt his sun burn) and i said i was happy for him (he asked Franky, Tara's cousin, out.) :( I made him promise not to talk to Franky on my time, and he agreed.
He asked 'what are you trying to say' when i was hugging him.
Sunday 4/22
Jordan left. Keli comes back over. We get high again. Me/Bill go to my house.
He knew i was upset. He said 'if you start crying-' then he stopped.
Jackie came and got him (motorcycle), and i broke down.
part 3 is coming
Shakesthecoffecan:
(Tappps foot on the floor impatiently and consumes and entire bag of potato chips) 8)
injest:
--- Quote from: Shakestheground on April 29, 2007, 06:41:52 pm ---(Tappps foot on the floor impatiently and consumes and entire bag of potato chips) 8)
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TRUMAN!
>:( >:(
tsk tsk tsk!
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