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Front-Ranger:
I guess I would have to say that the highest peak of Brokie happiness I have experienced was talking with Annie Proulx. But the second highest peak is close by it. It was a dream I dreamed where my BetterMost friends were all in my living room. The room was dark, only illuminated by candles and the moon and starlight coming in through the French doors. I walked into the room, and I saw latjoreme and LauraGigs in one corner talking together, two Titian-haired beauties, and I smiled because I knew exactly what they were talking about, the mysterious and nearly indiscernable "I Love You." And outside the window I saw two coyotes in the desert, which I knew were Impish and me, running through the desert to the strains of Rufus Wainwright. I turned and saw EDelMar opening his geocache and showing it to Adrian, who cradled his horse in his arm like a football. And Marge was in the kitchen making tea, while Pete and Mel stood by the fireplace, Pete in his boots and Mel wearing her rain slicker. And in between us all moved other people, transparent and white in the moonlight, murmuring and gesturing. (If I had this dream again, I know Eric would be there in full color!) And Ennis, Jack, and Alma were there too, although it was Michelle, not Alma, smiling a broad lipsticked smile and with flowing blond hair. I went from one to the other, hugging each one and taking your coats, and telling you how beautiful you are.

Lynne:

--- Quote from: Penthesilea on December 02, 2006, 02:51:28 pm ---It's noticable that for many of us, highlights of our BBM experiences are reaching out and finding connections to other people. Be it online or in person or both. This is a great outcome of Ennis's and Jack's story.

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Barbara - you said it, right there.  From my own perspective, there have been both peaks and valleys.  The swings in my mood seem almost bipolar between euphoria and utter despair.

Both peaks and pits are most certainly, inexorably, connected to relationships.  There are too many individual peak moments to count - I still get a little thrill when I see I have a new PM or see someone's posted I've been on the lookout for or I hear Phillip's voice on BBM Radio.

Three big peak moments stand out for me:

Seeing BBM at the Fox in Atlanta.  Prior to Atlanta, I had only seen BBM alone or with nonbelievers in a futile attempt to get someone in my real life to *see* me.  It was entirely different, viewing with people who were all experiencing variations of what I was going through.

The first night in Boston.  Walking into that room, seeing Eric - the only person I'd met before, instantly recognizing Leslie and RouxB and Jeff and ... knowing soul-deep that I was exactly where I belonged.

Leaving the Gustavo interview in Chelsea.  Standing on the street with Adrian, Meryl, Jenny, and John, feeling completely transformed, then looking up to see the full moon blessing us.  Again, visceral knowledge that I'm on the right path for me.

I must say, though, that these joyous moments have not come without a serious price.  The reason BetterMost is the forum for me is because of Phillip's vision - putting into practice Annie's point of 'finishing the story' in my own life.  Tell you what, it's not easy nor painless nor finished.  I'm going to go put some of that negative stuff in my blog - it doesn't belong in this thread.

Maybe like we can't have Jack without Ennis, we shouldn't expect to have the peaks without the valleys?

-Lynne

serious crayons:

--- Quote from: Front-Ranger on December 02, 2006, 07:39:59 pm ---I guess I would have to say that the highest peak of Brokie happiness I have experienced was talking with Annie Proulx. But the second highest peak is close by it. It was a dream I dreamed where my BetterMost friends were all in my living room. The room was dark, only illuminated by candles and the moon and starlight coming in through the French doors. I walked into the room, and I saw latjoreme and LauraGigs in one corner talking together, two Titian-haired beauties, and I smiled because I knew exactly what they were talking about, the mysterious and nearly indiscernable "I Love You." And outside the window I saw two coyotes in the desert, which I knew were Impish and me, running through the desert to the strains of Rufus Wainwright. I turned and saw EDelMar opening his geocache and showing it to Adrian, who cradled his horse in his arm like a football. And Marge was in the kitchen making tea, while Pete and Mel stood by the fireplace, Pete in his boots and Mel wearing her rain slicker. And in between us all moved other people, transparent and white in the moonlight, murmuring and gesturing. (If I had this dream again, I know Eric would be there in full color!) And Ennis, Jack, and Alma were there too, although it was Michelle, not Alma, smiling a broad lipsticked smile and with flowing blond hair. I went from one to the other, hugging each one and taking your coats, and telling you how beautiful you are.
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Beautiful post, FRiend!  :D

Ellemeno:
If wishes were fishes, I'd eat fewer knishes.

If wishes were fishes, Alma might never have said, "Jack Nasty."

"You didn't go up there to wish..."

If wishes were fishes, I'd be one of the ones swimming through Lee's next group dream.  :)

Noviani:
Nice thread!

mine is when i watched the movie for the first time, i was completely shocked when Ennis' last postcard was returned with stamped DECEASED!!

Hello!!!

i am not ready for a tragedy!

i had to open the dictionary to make sure what deceased means!(English is a foreign for me).
i guess the death is what dragged me to this stage. I don't like deaths because it is an ultimate closure. you can't have a second chance (unless you have an access to the next world. but most people don't have that).

i was and still I am upset for Ennis didn't have the gut to drop it all and be with Jack. how could he????

 still mad because their last camp finished with a nasty fight.

Like how we will remember Titanic, for loosing jack dawson, we will always remeber loosing Jack twist.

but at least Rose Dawson continued her life in a fulfiling way because Jack dawson had the chance to ask her to continue her life.

Jack never had that chance. and Ennis never had the chance to hear his last words...

this is an awful kinda story...

now i am upset again.

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