All these people fall away. Like little onion peals. What did is all mean?
I will probably wonder the rest of my life.
What I wonder about is how we came together in the first place. Ours never was the typical fandom, and the people who stayed around are not the kind of people who run in fandoms. I have been so blessed to meet and know people who I never would have had the chance to meet otherwise. Without
Brokeback Mountain and BetterMost, I would have gone my dreary way for the rest of my life, unknown, unloved, unchallenged. Instead, a story about two lonely sheep herders, written by a fiercely unsentimental author, has changed my life forever. And the biggest change is knowing there are people like me out there, being able to reach out to them and know them, even though some have passed through only briefly and even though I may never meet some of them in so-called "real life."