I just don't know what to say, think or do. I keep thinking I must be in some kind of terrible dream. I remember earlier today I was going to write something in the Heath Heath Heath thread cause I saw him just this weekend on television. I was telling my mother who was watching too to listen to how he really sounded with his Australian accent. He was Ennis!!! It seems that this is just hitting me, sinking in now, and it is not feeling good. All I know is I got home from work, took a nap, got up, turned the computer on and when the computer came up I see "Heath Ledger found dead." This was only a few minutes ago. I just kept reloading the page thinking that I must be seeing something that was not real. I didn't even know if I should bring BetterMost up cause I didn't want to see it if this was true. How many times have I told people that Heath was my favorite? So many times I can't even count. How can I watch BBM now knowing this? What am I going do? This is just absolutely horrible. I really don't know what to do.