I just had a long talk on the phone with Fred (pastorfred). He saw my comment about grieving in reverse and said, "It's not in reverse...you are just going through the stages in the order you are supposed to." And he reminded me...
Denial -- that feeling of numbness
Anger -- I don't remember being so angry, but maybe I was. I know others here have felt intense anger and expressed it.
Bargaining -- which came in the wake of my visit with Heath. Sort of like, "Oh, we talked and I'll be happy now if you tell me you are okay."
Depression -- where I am today
Acceptance -- where I'll get to someday...soon, I hope. Sigh....
He also reminded me that I need to do what I need to take care of myself--which might mean, putting some work projects on hold, telling people I can only do what I can do right now.
I am just sharing this as a reminder to all of us. I am so glad you are all here and grateful for your support. And guess what? We will muddle through.
Peace and love,
Leslie