My Dear BetterMost Family,
Before I type anything else, I have to ‘cover my ass,’ so to speak. SO, it is not my intention to discredit or speak as a representative of the Roman catholic Church, the Order of St. Benedict, Christianity in general or any other ‘way’ that one is able to connect with God. I have made a vow of Obedience as a Benedictine monk and if I am ordered to stop revealing my life changing new awareness of Creation as I now understand it, I will just not be around anymore. Sorry, but I am not well and my vows were Mutual in that I have to do what I am told BUT I will also be taken care of for the rest of my time on the planet.
NOW, with that out of the way let me Begin to try to explain the amazing transformation that I have gone through. It would not have been possible without the film “Brokeback Mountain” and all of you here at BetterMost, especially Lynne Steele, who got me to open up to you all in the first place even though I am really shy. Since around July 20th, I have been really sick and was sure my kidneys were failing and I was dying. Since I am a DNR, I just was grateful to have leftover pain killers to make me as comfortable as possible. On Saturday, August 11, 2007, I had THREE near death experiences – one right after the other, during the afternoon. I was and continue to be unafraid of dying … but there were some lingering strange feelings about what the actual transformation would involve. Those are now gone. It's as natural as ‘blinking your eyes.’ I now can see myself building a huge sign with “NO FEAR” written on it. After the near death experiences, i.e., going into the light… - I was totally at peace. Sometime early Sunday morning, I
died. Now I could write a book about that because it was so awesome and if anybody wants to know anything, ASK! If I am ‘able’ to tell you I sure will. There were just NO WORDS for the majority of the Experience.
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What is important to get out now, is that the LGBT community and their loving friends have always been special to God. He has made a COVENANT with us and he calls us
“The People of the Rainbow.” This revelation filled me with awe and gratitude. I continue to marvel at this compassionate relationship we have with God.
His Covenant states:
I LOVE YOU. I HAVE ALWAYS LOVED YOU. I WLL ALWAYS LOVE YOU. I TAKE CARE OF YOU. I HAVE ALWAYS TAKEN CARE OF YOU AND I ALWAYS WILL.My part in all of this is to now post again, "THE PERFECT PRAYER" - I am being told quite clearly to do this. It's on BetterMost somewhere but needs to be restated here as a gift to All of us. It always works. EVERY situation in which you find yourself is covered. It can’t fail. I’ve put it together from Scripture, prayer and the writings of Oswald Chambers and have been praying it for years. It reveals that God isn’t ‘out there somewhere.’ He Is IN the Moment! It’s really simple:
“Engineer my circumstances, O LORD, according to Your Will.”
God told me that this is a PERFECT PRAYER and a
huge number of people would be ‘saved*’ by it. (Since I am a Christian, it was an appropriate way to describe it.) I was surprised but not uncomfortable in the least. All this time I was being sung to by many voices singing “Your Perfect Prayer, has brought you – somewhere - you have waited for – all your life - in perfect prayer…”
In Heavenly Peace!~!~!~!
br. patrick
*: understood to be used to develop the need for the conventional use of this word (in Christianity) BUT NOW it is for anyone on the Planet, a truly Universal word in order to Covenant with The Supreme Being.