Hey Everybody, I have returned and it sure does make me feel good that people missed me and left such great nice posts. I really appreciate it more than you know. I can't really say what kind of mood I have been in for the past while cause I don't really know. It's kind of this just getting through the day thing and I haven't felt much like talking about anything. Obviously it is related to Heath's passing and seeing all the negative media coverage and just all of it in general. But I know I have to move on and obviously I have some GREAT friends to help me do that. Right in the middle of all this I had a job interview Wednesday for the job that I thought would be good. It turned out that the job sounded pretty bad and I think I have it better at the job I am at now. I know I didn't do that great at the interview, but I didn't really care since I figured out quickly I didn't want the job. Now watch them offer it to me
So anyway I am trying to make this weird mood pass on and I think it is. I'm not sure if that is one of those steps you are supposed to go through when something happens that put you into a grief state. Janice called me today on the phone and that sure was a BIG help. Thank You Janice!!! She reminded me that there is really nothing we can do to help Heath at this point. Whatever happened happened and he is gone. But we still have him in all of his performances and we especially still have him in our movie Brokeback. Nobody can ever take that away. Sometimes it surprises me that this hit me this hard, but it sure did. It was like a ton of bricks. I really admired the man and the things he stood for. I had read so much about him way before this happened. But the thing is Brokeback and Heath brought me to all of you and in the end that is what is important. I sincerely do appreciate all of you.
Jack
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