No, I don't see it as pure fiction, I see it as it is. I see what people in that movie go thorough and i take what mistakes or decisions theymake and interpret them into my own life. I relate to the movie because when i first seen it a 17 i hadn't done what they had done. I hadn't fell in love with a men.
Before i seen the film, i didn't even consider myself gay or bi. I had fantasy's. but i never made anything from it. After i seen this movie i realised a few things.
-Its possible to fall in love with a man and its okay.
-That if that opportunity presents it self i will take it by the balls and fight for it. Not being a Ennis.
-That the world hasn't changed that much and might never, but why dictate you life like that.
So i took this and made some decisions i came to regret.
I fell in love with my best friend. We were allways weird. As in we use to hug, hold hands while we sat next to eachother - hiding it from everyone else. For what reason i had no idea. We use to wrestle and things would get pretty sexual - I mean playing with others nipples and massaging each other. These things happen in between us being 14-17.
After the movie i fell in love with him. Three mouths later we went down to our local river - five miles from anyone - Our own Brokeback Mountain. We got drunk as we allways did. Than he became weird, told me we had to go further into the bush because people were coming. When we got there he told me "If i was ever going to explore my sexuality. I'd do it with you" So i told him the same. We had our first drunken outburst of sex.
After that things were weird. But a week later, he told me it was our little secret and he'd like to keep doing it. I told him i loved him. He told me the same. Than we had many similar moments like The Second Tent Scene.
I'm more of a optimistic Jack, no fear no regrets and allways dreaming of a better life. Around my friends I'm like that. Around others I'm like Ennis. He was very similar to jack to. Except he feared the world because of his parents. They were very Conservative. I MEAN VERY.
But we continued to maintain our secret relationship for six months. Than one day we got to confident and got caught in his room by his sister. When i say caught i literally mean pants down.
She told everyone, At first it wasn't to bad. it was like noting changed. we kept denying it. But little did i know what he was going through at home. So one day we made this plan to run away and find our own little place in the world that was right for us. I.E Denver.
We planned to leave Friday, two days before, i was walking home after a really fun night in the bush. And a crowd of boys approached me. They beat me, put me in hospital. Smashed face, Broken kidneys and a scull fracture. He never visited me when i was in hospital,
When i got out, he had left. his family wouldn't tell me where he was. and i still dint know. Its been Nealy a year since i heard anything. None of that was nothing compared to the broken heart i suffered from now.
So i blamed the movie. If i hadn't seen the movie it would have never lead me to make the decisions i made.
I went Neall a year without seeing it. One day i had a dream about Jack and Ennis. So i brought it. Didn't affect me the same way. But it was still Amazing.
I don't think guys my age dislike the film because they haven't experienced some of the stuff in that film. When your a teenager you experience life so intensely. Even more than when you mature.
I liked the film in general, Everything about it is great. One thing that i love the most is The Second Tent Scene, It reminds me of a world that seems so far gone.
P.S - He seen the movie also, I remember the night so clearly, He looked at said in these teary eyes. "It's not there fault, You cant help who you fall in love with"
No you cant, Love is possible only if you can see how real it is.
I experienced more of the movie than i would care to remember.
