Dear fellow Brokies
I woke this morning with such a deep sense of loss and at first I didn't remember WHY!! And then Heath's face appeared in my mind...and I realized that he was gone!! Gone is that beautiful smile.....that easy gait...that shy demeanor....that impish grin.
And then I got up and dressed. Slowly...it seemed. As though I were still in a dreamlike
state. We've ALL heard about the deaths of many prominent people over the years. I was
17 when James Dean died...WAY before his time. I was devastated. I was young and had the typical crush that one has at that age. And then there was Elvis. Again....sadness and
grief. But Heath's death is close to debiliating...crushing...unreal...impacting like none I've experienced before. The ONLY death that was even close was when I lost my dear dad....and my best friend Everett two years ago. I had BARELY gotten 'over' losing them when suddenly....without warning...HEATH!!
Heath was the son I'd always wanted. I wrote here long ago that I wanted to pull a warm
blankie around Heath and Jake...to warm them...to keep them safe...to nurture them and help guide them along their way. I wanted to make hot chocolate for them and warm cookies. OH how I wish I could have put my arms around Heath....help soothe him...rock him to sleep....pull the blankies up around his shoulders and kiss his forehead with pure unadulterated LOVE!!
There's a hole in my heart today. It will heal...I'm SURE of that. But....it is soooo very painful.
Much love to all my fellow brokies who are mourning with me. Rayn....Iris....Lynne...and of course PHILIP....who has always been here for us to hold our hands and help ease the pain. THANK you Phillip....always! And the Brokies that I don't yet know!! Thank you all for your beautiful words in honor of our Heath.
Bob....I'm so so very sorry about the loss of your DAD.
Much love to all.....Nancy <an 'ole grandma>
