I am to say the least,a real amateur here.In fact this is my first attempt to write anything.I am an optometrist by training.However as with many,
BBM got under my skin,and has remained so ever since.Last night unable to sleep,I decided for the first time to write down some of the many things tumbling through my head.I do not expect to win any paludits,but at least it whiled away a few hours last night.And as my husband has no interest,in BBM I have only fellow Bettermost folk to share with.
BROKEBACK,OPEN SPACE,CLOSED.
Old manTwist gone,no more disdain,
earth cold,hard,remnants,remains.
The call expected,memories pour as rain,
Ennis Del Mar,mumbling,voice etched,pain.
The soil dry,fingers old,gnarled,flowers long wilted,
smile at the edge,mouths' contours tilted.
Words,no need,coffee,cake,not offered,
hands clasp bag,past put right,long deferred.
At the truck,qick,blink,miss it,a glance,
staring,knowing,starts,breaks the trance.
A hanger once bent,shirts worn,stained,
reviving stories,love,and memories retained.
Horse restless,uneasy,startle point low,
Brokeback,rises,craggy,secrets,moments in time,snow.
Hidden,crouching,eyes watch,paws lethal,raised,
strike,gap closed,no space now,with one blow,erased.
Lying staring,pain gone,euphoric now,white moon,
lets refrains,melodies,slide forward,just once in tune.
Warmth suffuses,from center,permeates through bone,
peace comes,qick,quiet,smiling,no longer alone.
Daughter sees through tears,years,must be done,
left together there,in life two,death combines as one.
She knew,had seen,life drained,as time rides,robs,
coffee grinds,boots,spirit,broken,wretching sobs.
But Karma's reins,steer now,horse not startled,bold
love continues,beyond,never ending,as arms enfold.
Sun glints,catches buckle,marks time,place,
laughter on wind,breezes,hovers,fills,once open space,
From lifes belief,stems relief now,yielding dreams sweet,bright,
Brokeback,breathes,sings,spring,hope reborn,as man's wrongs,now right.
O.K so please dont shoot me down in flames!!!! I gave fair warning this was a first attempt at anything remotely like this,but it sprang fom a deep love of BBM.And a the fact that it continues to haunt my every moment,to this day.I wanted some sort of resolution for Jack and Enns,and ultimately,me.As I could not bring Jack back to life,I decided to send Ennis to him instead.I know it is a bit trite and Hallmark,but at least the words are not,crowding my brain any more.
