Good question, Lynne. It's hard for me to speak to how I'd perceive it if it didn't come out until 5 or 10 years from now because its having come out when it did and affecting me like it did colors everything in my life, especially the way I look at movies. You know? It's kind of a chicken and egg proposition for me.
But I can speak to how I'd have perceived it 10 (or more) years ago. I'm fairly certain I wouldn't have been ready in the sense Chris described - ready to face my issues. I think I'd have been like that horse at the water's edge that doesn't even realize he's thirsty. And on a different level, 10 or more years ago I had seen that many fewer movies and would have had that much less of a basis for comparison. The more movies you see, the more you hunger for something original. And the finer your taste becomes, I think. 10 or more years ago, I was only just discovering foreign films and independent films were just coming into the fold (at least as far as I was concerned). I always liked movies that made me think and that changed me in some way, so I was always partway there. But I don't think I'd have even fully appreciated how artistically advanced it is back then.
When I look at all the living I've done in the last ten years - the rough spots in my marriage and extended family relationships and career, having a child and how that changed everything infinitely more than I could have possibly prepared myself for, surviving a severe case of post-partum depression (and I don't use the word "surviving" facetiously - I almost didn't make it), wading through the widening water in my marriage since our son came - it's no wonder I must have reached a point where I was ready to deal with it all.
Another point Chris brought up that strikes me - that someone could be filled with loneliness and regret and yet still see this as "just a movie" - that fits a friend of mine to a tee - a friend to whom I lent one of my copies of the movie months ago, and she still can't bring herself to watch it. Not because she has any issues that she's aware of with homosexuality, but because she says she's seen how it's affected me and she's afraid it'll level her. She's someone who generally goes out of her way to watch only movies she knows will probably have a happy ending - Hollywood stuff. Yet every now and again she'll surprise me and tell me she's seen a movie I thought she'd have never chosen and that she enjoyed it, "even though it made her cry." I've told her if she really doesn't think she'll ever watch it, she can give it back - I don't mean to pressure her to watch something she's not interested in. But she doesn't want to let it go. She'll say, "Oh, I'll watch it. Eventually." One day recently she said to me, "You know, I almost watched your movie last night." I'm glad she's waiting until she's ready.