New convert!

[ednbarby]

Hi, momof2.  I'm a momof1 and have gone through/still am going through everything you've described, as are most folks here.  You've definitely come to the right place.  Take off your coat (or parka or canvas jacket, as the case may be) and stay a while.

[Marty]

Hey!  I am new to the forum.  I really do not know why I am posting.  I am married and have two kids and BBM has gotten me good.  The movie touched me in places that I did not know existed.  It really made me look at my life.  I think about Ennis and Jack constantly and common everyday things make me think of the movie.  When I first watched I felt like my heart was being ripped from my body.  The next day, I could not think of anything else.  It has made me love my husband in a differnt way.  He is the love of my life and I can not imagine the pain Ennis and Jack felt.  I do not think I could take it. 

Of everything I've read here, your post resonates the most with me.  I know the story affects different people for different reasons ... that gay men see it differently than straight men, and men differently from women, and everyone sees it in the light of his or her own history.  I've been married 15 years, and this movie changed the way I look at my marriage.  We've never had significant problems, and if you'd have asked me two weeks ago if we had a happy marriage, I'd have said yes.  And it would have been true.  He's the love of my life and my best friend.

Then 10 days ago I rented the movie, and I saw him in a whole new way.  I keep being reminded that our time together is limited; that we're so fortunate that society sanctions our relationship; that there's a 50/50 chance that I'll have to live the end of my life without him.  It's interesting to note that I didn't cry during the movie.  I was stunned and pensive, but I didn't cry.  The crying came when I tried to tell my husband why I was so affected by it.

That's what Jack and Ennis represented to me:  how very fortunate I am to have found my true love, and at an age and time where we could be together unhindered.

[wolf]

A warm welcome to all the recently Broken.

You're in excellent company, no mistake.  May the ride become smoother, and the journey magnificent  .

W

wasn't sure where to post this next bit, but figured a newbie thread vaguely appropriate.  the DVD was released in Australia today.  I've had advanced feedback on viewer reactions from a Blockbuster outlet who put it on shelves last weekend.  so far, so incredible (but not altogether surprising).  people are dropping like ninepins - with no net like this forum to catch them.  it's no little thing that's happening here. 

[Emmanuellover]

I hardly ever post ....but I read here as often as I can......I'm a momof2 also.....and I don't know why this movie affects me like it does....but it does....

I've seen it 3 times in the theatre...first time last December.....and I have watched it 3 times at home on DVD....whenever kids/hubby are out and I have about 3 hours to myself, guess what is the first thing that comes to mind....some alone time with our guys....

I sure wish it would come to the big screen again one day......................would love to see it a few more times.......I always went to see it with some friends, but I would love to go see it several times all alone to just take it all in again and again....

(also wish they would come out with another DVD...which would include all the other takes of scenes that were deleted....wouldn't mind seeing the 12 or so other versions of the scenes that weren't used.....!)

[Samrim]

I'm finding this site great to see but difficult to use; time being limited, I've not read the rather copious help notes on how to 'quote' and stuff, or rather I've not had time to UNDERSTAND it's options!  However......
I do agree with previous speakers relating their reactions to ole Brokeback, it has been a great relief finding so many fellow 'sufferers'. Ole Brokeback sure got me good, after nine big screenviewings, and twice only on DVD. 
I dont watch it too much, 'cos I'm terrified of lessening it's impact, an impact that overwhelms me completely. Every detail is etched in my memory, form Ennis's loving smile after the've seperated the flocks of sheep, to that frenzied reunion kiss, to Mrs Twist's hand on Ennis's  shoulder, to Young Alma's "Yes Daddy, he loves me'. I think of them daily, and often have to bite my lip, or go 'white knuckled' as I fear 'losing it' in public, at the shops, in the pub, or this morning (Sunday) at early communion. Thank G*d for Annie Proulx, Ang Lee, and our boys (both pairs!).
Best Wishes all,
Sam

[Tristann]

After reading these posts, I also wanted to shout, "me too! me too!" a couple of times - I am sooooo glad others had similar experiences. I'm also glad that I was alone when watching it for the first time - I could really let it all out. I was fine throughout the movie, but when Ennis found the shirts...it felt like somebody was sitting on my chest while someone else was ripping my heart out. Then came the last scene and Ennis' final words. Cut to me rolling across the carpet, sobbing uncontrollably... I know I'm putting a slightly humorous twist on the event, but in all seriousness, I don't think I can succesfully describe what I really experienced. All I know is that is was/is big. And it is not letting go. I always sort-off smirked when I heard about people having cried themselves to sleep, but the morning after, I realized that I did exactly that.

Some of you mentioned "flashes" from the movie in your daily life. I get that too - and when they come so unexpectedly, it cathes me off-guard. The day after seeing the movie for the first time, I was teaching and explaining like I always do. Turning to write on the blackboard, I had this sudden flashback. Now, a couple of days after, I still get them regularly. Brokeback sure got me good too.