I'm not
.
Just saw BBM tonight on my DVD, on my own, in the dark of my sitting room, for the 11th or 12th time in all (I am losing track).
I broke up as hard as on my early viewings in the theater, which to tell the truth had not happened since I bought the dvd. I wonder if that is because I had starved myself of BBM for too long (several weeks), or because I could measure how far down the road I have gone, towards "finishing the story" in my own life.
Even though a new way of living is dawning for me, Brokeback Mountain remains the magical spark to it all. This board, after IMDb, remains the place where I met so many people of whom I have grown very fond; people who helped me survive the deep sorrow and the
then incomprehensible pain I felt, like so many others, after seeing BBM.
You bet I ain't leaving