I first posted this in a discussion thread about what Ennis knew and when and why he acted as he did, but realized it fits better in here.
I think I may have reached some sort of "inner peace" about what Ennis (and Jack) consciously or subconsciously knew and thought and felt and why they did or didn't do, or say, or feel, or be...... Perhaps it's just the eye of the Brokeback hurricane I'm experiencing at the moment. About time too, after much more than half a year of this.
I've always believed they both know and acknowledge to themselves they love the other, early on in their story, - Ennis too, even if he didn't use the word. In the midst of all their struggles they both knew what they had. I still firmly believe that. I've been wearing my necklace with 2 silver cowboy hat charms quite a lot lately and the reason I like it so much is because it to me *is* a beautiful symbol of deep and abiding and acknowledged love.
All the tragedy and missed opportunities and twarthed hopes and dreams in the film serves to put the love story in high relief, make it stand out all the clearer and more beautiful. Ennis and Jack had their love for each other tested and tried like few others, and they both had to make significant personal sacrifices, and still the love held. And even if they did not have much time together, and the entirely happy times were few, - they *did* have them. Moments of perfect happiness and passionate love with the one person they were destined to be with in all the world. What speaks to me especially is the very fact that what they had was so deeply real and true and pure despite all the pain and grief and loss, all the adversity, dangers, obstacles, difficulties, misunderstandings and setbacks. Perhaps you won't even ever be able to *experience* that level of truth and intense beauty in your life unless you also go through those darkest of places and the most difficult of times. That speaks to me on a *very* personal level these days.
Look at the male/female couples in the film. Not only Ennis's and Jack's marriages, but the other couples. They should have it easier as far as being a couple and having a relationship goes. Alma and Monroe, Jack's parents, Lureen's parents... (I won't even mention the Malones). Yet not a couple in sight who I could be made to believe has *ever* once for a minute felt the kind of passion for each other that Jack and Ennis share for 20 years. Their mutual passion is one of a kind in their world. And well, their whole story just moves me profoundly. Still. After all this time.
So though I'm sure I'll be diving back into discussions of events and actions and emotions and psychological make-up and the impact of childhood traumas and society's oppression and so on....... for now I'm just enjoying this peaceful
Brokeback=love feeling , and from that perspective will continue reading and mulling over what everyone has to say.