Such words were never
More painful than
For me to hear
That you wish you knew how to quit me
Am I so wrong for you?
I've tried, Jack, I've tried so hard
To love you for our brief moments.
But for these you weren't satisfied.
You always wanted more
More than I could give, More than I would dare
Your bright soul danced the heights of sky
But you never looked back
Could you not see that I could
Not go as far as you.
Some inner anchor held me here.
Some genuine terror.
You never saw it, never addressed it.
You just wanted more and more
But I could not give you what you wanted:
Free, unabashed love - because I
Know the darkness and the anguish of the flame
But despite these I have loved you.
In my own special way, making all this
Special time
For us.
Sometimes there's no time to make
Hourglass sands flow through
I cannot catch them, though I want to
And give them over
To you.
But you could not appreciate
Everything I did
Though you knew how much it cost me
And what is left for us.
And yet you turn away from what we have.
It's solid and it's real.
You want so much more than either of us
Can give. You want a dream.
I am no dream, Jack, I'm here and now
But you look off into distant horizons
You see palaces of cloud
You see things that were and things
Which could be, but never things as they are.
I am here, I am solid, I am making
My love known. I make sacrifices every day.
But it is not enough.
You demand more than I can give, because I
Do not have it to give. But I am still here; thats
All I know. Your smile lifts my day, but I
See it less and less.
And now you pull away, you try to distance yourself.
And as you go, supports crash around me
Everything crumbles.
I was here. I was solid, but what am I now?
Without your love, I'm nothing, you are my
Inner soul. How dare you take away from me
What once was grand and special! It has
Sustained me through the years, allowed me
To continue.
I was stable and secure with your love's anchor
But with the anchor gone, I am nowhere.
