I changed the poll to remove 'in the theatre' so we can keep up with total viewings. I'm stopping my personal count with 19 theatre viewings.
...Brokeback Fever had hit me so hard: walked around like a zombie, couldn't concentrate, would unexpectedly burst into tears, lost a lot of sleep. And my fears came true: my symptoms spiked after the second time.
How in the world could anyone stand so many viewings?!? I wudda ended up institutionalized, for damned sure.
We've been talking some in the Ladies' Corner about the need to be institutionalized.
Seriously, this has worked its way into my subconscious and my dreams in a way nothing else I can ever remember. I have had all the symptoms you mention plus the Brokeback evangelism problem where I'm nearly desperate for
someone I know to understand this (and they do not - so you can add disappointment and frustration to the list). I'll think I'm over the evangelism once and for all, and then something will spark an idea and I'm off again.
I've made a pact with myself that I WILL NOT visit this board during work hours. The past few weeks, if I ever get here, the next thing I know, hours have elapsed....probably not a good career move.
For me it's not a matter of 'standing' so many viewings, but more of a compulsion to see it again. I think I am only really processing my feelings about it a little bit at a time and being engrossed there on Brokeback is giving me the space to work on them.
-Lynne
