Sorry.
No apologies needed, Noviani. Thanks for sharing; this is a place where you are perfectly free and safe to do so.
Death can indeed be devastating for those left behind. I think time can be a great healer, but everyone heals at a different pace, and for some, no amount of time seems to be enough. Perhaps we can take some comfort in knowing that loss is a universal experience, that everyone can relate to in some degree, and that can create bonds among the living, dealing with our common grief.
There can be profound beauty and honor in death, both in facing our own and in accepting that of those dear to us. I take some comfort in this thought.
Sincerely,
Scott