Thanks injest, your a sweetie. Your quite right of course. If one of my kids woke up crying I wouldn,t tell them off of course, but with me it feels different. I mean at 2am!! ffs. I just feel so stupid. I can,t shake it off, and I have NO idea whats caused it. The only things I can think of that have happened this year are:
A few months back my youngest was extreemly ill with tonsilitis, his temp was 103 and he was shaking. I,d been up ALL night with him as I always do when the kids are poorly, and the doctor came and gave him antibiotics etc. Then he had a tonsilectomy, and I spent the night in hospital with him. He took ages to get better, and we had many sleepless nights, but he,s fine now. Then there was last week when I couldn,t find him, and it actually did make me physically ill that night, with a temperature etc. I had NO sleep atall, but after a couple of days I was ok. But surely it can,t be all that? It,s just too stupid for words, as my dad would say. I,m so annoyed with myself and I want to tell myself to get a grip. I,m going away on Saturday down to the coast for a week, so maybe some good sea air will do me a world of good. I sure hope so, I,m sick to death of being such a misery. Thanks for letting me rabbit on anyway, I appreciate it.
Souxi. xxxx